tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31910753607619740302012-02-02T11:21:52.138+08:00serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.comBlogger2091100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-2642065540522060822012-02-02T11:05:00.002+08:002012-02-02T11:21:52.152+08:00OK! last lap of this sucky semester! <div>shall tahan this little bit more! </div><div>just this one more group project and individual assignment left...</div><div>i can de!</div><div>lols..</div><div><br /></div><div>didnt reali enjoyed my CNY as much as previous years..</div><div>but still on the up side.. enjoyed more than i thought i would...</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>had my TDM presentation ytd..</div><div>went quite ok but kena shoot by teachers that we can reali ans.. :(</div><div>but i think i did quite well though...</div><div>managed to present without script this time! :D</div><div>purposely didnt print out my script this time and managed to present out the slides which i wasnt my part on the spot..</div><div>awesomeness!! </div><div>haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>had been thinking of quitting school for quite some time now..</div><div>those on my twitter would prolly had seen them ald...</div><div>but mama don let... ass la...</div><div>but whatever...</div><div>come to think of it is just one more sem that i have to spend with this sucky friends...</div><div>next sem internship no need see them.. then come back final sem have to see them again... :(</div><div>might as well just bear with it...</div><div>aiya... see how 1st la..</div><div>coz don reali feel like being in the same grp with them for FYP although i have to admit that they are all way stronger and smarter than me a hundred and thousand times... </div><div><br /></div><div>haix... don think too much ba... see how things goes ba... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>still waiting for my internship company to call me...</div><div>hope i can get it... :)</div><div><br /></div><div>hmmm... should be all for now... </div><div>back to earth to project discussion ald ba..</div><div>have been blogging while they are doing things.. =x</div><div>HAHA! </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-264206554052206082?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-62839559430901474772012-01-18T12:18:00.002+08:002012-01-18T12:47:18.775+08:00y am i even sitting here collating the tutorial ans with them?<div>should have just volunteered/ rather go with the option that i was given to let them collate among themselves and i present later during the tutorial..</div><div>what an ass sucked up fucked up decision i had made...</div><div>totally regretting this..</div><div><br /></div><div>but whatever la...</div><div>have to live with all the decisions i made...</div><div>moreover i cant possibly just stand up and walk away lidat...</div><div>haix... :(</div><div><br /></div><div>sucks ttm man... </div><div><br /></div><div>so lame la! </div><div>all act smart go find so many infor... </div><div>then now complaint too many things dono how to collate...</div><div>then say sian... </div><div>is ur all zhi zhao one what...</div><div>but whatever.. like i care...</div><div>totally sitting here and blogging/ complaining like nobody's business... HAHA! :D</div><div>shall volunteer to present later on in class..</div><div>and let the stupiak teacher shoot die me...</div><div>then go home slp...</div><div>then do my part assigned to me for the ecd report and sent to them...</div><div>then shall start collating the damn tdm project that i would have been finished with if not for all the late 'submission' by groupmates.. </div><div><br /></div><div>yea... can totally hear from their convo and tone that they are trying to say in a indirect way that i never do work or contribute...</div><div>so obvious man! </div><div>but it is obvious that im ignoring them too! </div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>mark me down lo...</div><div>let me fail man! </div><div>will be utterly grateful ar!! </div><div>hahaa!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>no time ald still debating about what point to put in the slides.. </div><div>just anyhow put la! </div><div>just a tutorial anw...</div><div>and not like ur do so many teacher will say anything...</div><div>on the contrary she will just shoot us more qns that we can ans only lo... </div><div>then we or rather i will look like a fool... </div><div>thanks alot uh!! =.=</div><div>grateful ttm... </div><div><br /></div><div>finally done!! lols..</div><div>waste of my one hour!! </div><div>and yea.. this blog is type over the time span of one hour... HAHA!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6283955943090147477?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-68527553157440461592012-01-17T23:34:00.004+08:002012-01-17T23:55:42.514+08:00shall do a quick one before i head to bed...<div><br /></div><div>(looking back after i have done typing it doesnt seems short at all... but somehow i used very little time to type this... lols... starting to think what people say is quite true.. you type way lot faster when you are angry man! haha!! :D)</div><div><br /><div>almost haven blog for two weeks ald... =p </div><div>drowning in the tons of projects and work so far.. </div><div>sobs..</div><div>:(</div><div>but gonna be over soon la...</div><div>hate this sem lo..</div><div>all the assignment due so close to each other..</div><div>somemore all so close to CNY! </div><div>hate it max la! </div><div>knn sia NP!! :(</div><div><br /></div><div>have been in a super duper zuper foul mood recently..</div><div>no idea why..</div><div>lols..</div><div>maybe is just all the pressure from the ridiculous amount of work waiting for me to do and complete? </div><div>lols...</div><div>have been super sian at sch..</div><div>never felt so sian before..</div><div>feel totally out of the clique now..</div><div>like getting lesser and lesser things to say to them now..</div><div>or rather.. nothing to say to them anymore..</div><div>who wants to talk to back-stabbers? </div><div>maybe its just me la..</div><div>maybe i think to much...</div><div>read too much into things...</div><div>but whatever la...</div><div>from the start oso not reali close to them oso..</div><div>haha!</div><div>but super sian lo..</div><div>like want to talk oso dono what to talk..</div><div>most impt-ly is don even feel like talking to them...</div><div>and the worse thing?</div><div>can even be on my own la..</div><div>like so weird... </div><div>maybe its just me again..</div><div>but it seems like so... idk what to say...</div><div>haix...</div><div><br /></div><div>fretting over tdm project...</div><div>ridiculous groupmates that doesnt reply to smses have yet to send me their parts for their research!! @#&amp;%^!@#$%^*</div><div>how in the fuck am i going to collate all the stuff??</div><div>and its due on the 27th for godness sake!! </div><div>ARGH!! </div><div>*^%$#@!#$*&amp;(*&amp;%^$@#!#$%</div><div>LOOKS LIKE I HAVE TO GET ALL DONE MYSELF OVER CNY!! </div><div>yea... who asked me to be back-stabbed at this kind of time..</div><div>BLAME IT ALL ON MY FUCKING LUCK MAN! </div><div>lols... =.= </div><div>that's the bad part about being in a new group...</div><div>and worst!! being the leader of the group! </div><div>awesome huh!! =.=!</div><div><br /></div><div>aiya... face up la... this is life man...</div><div>but whatever..</div><div>i dowan give a damn anymore...</div><div>seriously lost all interest in studying ald..</div><div>all that's in my mind is to drop right out of sch this very instance... </div><div><br /></div><div>and what could add on to my irritation?</div><div>who else but mother! </div><div>sucks man!! </div><div>don even know what is going on nag like shit..</div><div>no surprise that i don reali show u anymore respect now like u always say these days...</div><div>like i say for most things...IDC! </div><div>u can go nag ur lungs out..</div><div>see if any of it gets into me...</div><div>go nag and let the wall hear...</div><div>lets see who will suffer from depression first... </div><div>you or me...</div><div>we shall see... </div><div><br /></div><div><div>super warm lo the weather these two days!! cant tahan ald lo...</div><div>just ytd alone bath 4 times!! like siao lo! waste water! haha! </div><div>but too warm to stand it la! </div><div>make me feel so sticky sia! </div><div><br /></div>alritex!! </div><div>gonna have a quick cold water shower before turning in...</div><div>weather is ridiculous these days as well..</div><div>just like everything and everybody...</div><div>hell yea! =.=</div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6852755315744046159?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-82687117819828608462012-01-04T23:17:00.002+08:002012-01-04T23:33:07.200+08:00going bonkers doing my report! <div>jus realised how long it was since i last blogged.. =p </div><div><br /></div><div>christmas that time went out to play and sing k with the usual siao people!! </div><div>haha! :D</div><div>at night then went to cat laopo de cousin de hse to eat steamboat and countdown...</div><div><br /></div><div>following closely jiu shi new year! :D</div><div>went to watch movie with daphne in the afternoon then jiu went to look for the others in the evening...</div><div>had sakae for dinner then went to watch fireworks at esplande! :D</div><div>awesomely awesome man! </div><div>super nice lo! =p </div><div>and also super crowded la! </div><div>squeeze like hell lidat before we finally found a spot to stand and wait for the fireworks... =p</div><div>after watching fireworks jiu decided to go clark quay...</div><div>me and liu yue was super high lo...</div><div>kept on randomly saying happy new year to all the people that we see on the streets! =p </div><div>but people are also quite nice and wished us back!! woots~~ </div><div>XD</div><div>talk talk abit when we finally reached CQ...</div><div>then after that me, liu yue, cat and zw, we went into random shops there to dance!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>superly fun man! =p</div><div>after the finish for the night ald we then went to liang court there to sit sit and talk talk to wait for the 1st train... =p</div><div>all quite cui by then ald.. started playing random games... =p </div><div>when gt train ald jiu went home..</div><div>had mac breakfast with them first before making our way home... </div><div>so fun to ton outside lo! =p </div><div>and i think im hooked onto going clubbing ald la!!</div><div>thanks to cat for dragging me to dance that time! </div><div>hahah!! :D</div><div>gonna find a chance to reali go club one day! =p</div><div><br /></div><div>it was oddly good to hear hady's voice after so long...</div><div>was so surprised when he called me after i dropped him a 'happy new year' text...</div><div>was randomly sending messages to people without reali looking at their names...</div><div>but somehow it wasnt reali that awkward to talk to him... </div><div>was just super surprised though coz didnt realised that i had sent the message to him.. =p</div><div><br /></div><div>somehow i find myself missing him still sometimes... </div><div>almost 1 and half years ald... </div><div>i oso dono why... </div><div>haha! :D</div><div>guess shall just remain as it is ba...</div><div>don reali wanna go into anything right now...</div><div>HAHAH! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>okie.. enough of all this ald...</div><div>shall go back to my report!</div><div>due on fri!! die!! </div><div>haven study for my clinic stuff oso lo!!</div><div>JIALAT!! =/</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8268711781982860846?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-85837798039018440822011-12-17T21:24:00.002+08:002011-12-17T22:20:46.912+08:00finally done with all the shit CTs!! <div>haha! :D</div><div>studied for all like only one day before the papers! </div><div>wts sia! </div><div>slack too much ald! </div><div>haha! XD</div><div><br /></div><div>anw things are getting better..</div><div>both home and school :)</div><div>and i gt short listed for the new job ald!! haha! :D</div><div>training on tue!</div><div>hope everything goes well :D</div><div><br /></div><div>had a hard time deciding for my internship choices! </div><div>sho many choices</div><div>finally decided on what i want ald..</div><div>hopefully can get it! :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8583779803901844082?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-33765642072760798302011-12-03T10:54:00.002+08:002011-12-03T11:21:13.214+08:00complain complain and more complain... <div>yea.. that's prolly what im best at..</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>thanks to all the shit..</div><div>but imma gonna face all this shit right in the face rather than complaining~</div><div>i will not go to sch scare or upset or anything..</div><div>I WILL SEE UR RIGHT IN THE FACE AND SMILE!</div><div>LAUGH RIGHT ON WITH MY LIFE!</div><div>I WANT TO MAKE UR GUILTY! </div><div><br /></div><div>afterall its not me who had done anything wrong...</div><div>is ur...</div><div>ur did not want me..</div><div>ur casted me out..</div><div>ur abandoned me..</div><div>ur kicked me out...</div><div><br /></div><div>SO WHAT AM I AFRAID OF? </div><div>NOTHING!!</div><div><br /></div><div>im not even afraid of scoring badly for this module..</div><div>for this sem..</div><div>for my whole poly life..</div><div>i have gotten the lowest grade i could have gotten before ald..</div><div>a pathetic gpa of 2.4...</div><div>so u think im still worrying about getting lower?</div><div>sorry im not! </div><div>if i can ever get lower than that, i think i would prolly be a effing genius man! </div><div>HAHAH! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>anw special thanks to those effing AWESOME peeps for cheering me up! :D</div><div>tkl, justin, sc, daphne, jason and audrey!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>was still emo-ing at home when justin called to meet up for dinner..</div><div>haha! :D come to think of it now abit stupid ar.. waste time for people that are not worth it...</div><div>wasted my life and happiness on them! =p</div><div>decided to go even though i had dinner... talk talk with them oso shuang... =p </div><div>somemore tkl going in camp ald.. so jus went... </div><div>chatted and made me forget my troubles.. haha! :D</div><div>unexpected call from the right peeps totally made my day yo! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>after their dinner and my supper... though i didnt eat much besides having a drink...</div><div>went to meet jason :)</div><div>when he reached saw that audrey came along to meet me too! </div><div>touched!! </div><div>realised that i had made them all worry for me...</div><div>esp that day when i literally ignored everybody...</div><div>haha! </div><div>zhi han told me when i replied his text the next morning that i gave them all a heart attack! haha! :D</div><div>almost laugh out loud on the bus reading it! </div><div>sounds like i so evil.. :/ make people worry ald still can laugh.. haha! :D</div><div>but its just the way he wrote it la... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>went to watch them eat.. haha! :D</div><div>still super full from dinner to eat anything...</div><div>too bad audrey had to leave shortly after coz she need to rush for her last train... </div><div>after that talked abit with jason..</div><div>felt a better after talking to him..</div><div>although didnt told him the worse problem.. the things with sch...</div><div>but aiya.. don have to trouble people with stupid problems like this.. HAHA! XD</div><div><br /></div><div>shit stuff made me opened my eyes and see who are my true friends and who are those that i should actually stay away from... </div><div><br /></div><div>come to think of it.... it is not a bad thing afterall! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3376564207276079830?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-70646854013099560052011-12-03T10:20:00.002+08:002011-12-03T10:54:06.167+08:00<div>just when i thought i could handle things.. shit have to happen again! </div><div><br /></div><div>just when i thought i could just endure it through... </div><div>for another half a semester now and one final semester after internship with them shit has to happen... </div><div><br /></div><div>I OFFICIALLY DECLARED THAT ALL OF UR ARE NOT MY FRIENDS ANYMORE! </div><div><br /></div><div>i know none of them would see this but idc... its better like this even i think...</div><div>at least i can act like there nth wrong and pretend around u guys...</div><div>all i want now is for sch to end... </div><div>to not see any of ur anymore..</div><div>to end on a good note and not a bad and awkward one... </div><div>that's all i ask now... to be able to pretend... :)</div><div><br /></div><div>what im fuming is the fact that ur judge me juz coz of that one incident...</div><div>that one time where i had to miss the meeting which ur told me so late... </div><div>that ur wanted so close to the deadline..</div><div>so it ended up that i did nth for that project.. and ur are unhappy with me?</div><div>is it my fault? like seriously! </div><div>ur wanted to changed the whole thing the last min... was it my fault that ur wanted something so big and so ambitious?</div><div>and when u realised that things are not working out and wanted to change so last min.. i couldnt meet and ur are unhappy with me? </div><div><br /></div><div>whatever.. i simply don care anymore! </div><div>but blaming people is simply too tiring.. exhausting..</div><div>i might as well blame myself..</div><div>maybe i wasnt the best grp mate for u guys..</div><div>yea.. i am too sloppy in my work.. never be able to meet ur standards...</div><div>im just not that bright and not fast as u guys are..</div><div>prolly ur did a good decision casting me out...</div><div>whatever is it...</div><div>I SIMPLY DON GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE..</div><div>ur made me hate myself...</div><div><br /></div><div>ur were never my friends...</div><div>never been able to understand me..</div><div>but thanks for all the good times together IN THE PAST</div><div>appreciated much..</div><div><br /></div><div>i think the only thing that i would regret of poly life was getting into wrong clique...<br />ur were never from my kind of world.. </div><div>itd just the whole world and me now i guess.. :)</div><div><br /></div><div>I WILL SURVIVE IT THROUGH EVEN WITHOUT UR..</div><div>i don even give a damn to my grades anymore la..</div><div>since im not going to uni after poly... and private uni oso don need to look at results de..</div><div>so who cares?</div><div>for all i know i can even just drop out of sch right now.. immediately when i feel like it... :)</div><div>but still thanks for making my grade look reasonable... thanks :)</div><div>so that's it..</div><div><br /></div><div>i don need a bunch of friends that treat me like dust.. like im not worth it... </div><div>all i need is one friend that knows me well...</div><div>and im thankful to God that i have a few of the latter...</div><div>jin hui, boon, tkl, and justin!! :D</div><div>we are so close that we can talk anything to each other! haha! :D</div><div>although it sometimes make me wanna puke blood talking to that siao zabor!! haha! XD</div><div>u guys are awesome! :D </div><div>friends for life!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7064685401309956005?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-54369329368239077972011-12-02T06:54:00.000+08:002011-12-03T10:20:23.957+08:00y are all the shit happening in my life like yet again?<div>seriously =.=</div><div>been troubled by all the shit and the thoughts that shouldnt have...</div><div>irritated much</div><div>was thankful when sch finally ended.. meant some peace and time for me to think through things..</div><div>had an awesome music blasting session on the journey home..</div><div>my own 'therapy'.. HAHA! :D</div><div>with my awesome beats earphones! simply AWESOME!! </div><div>totally deafening! which was what i needed..</div><div>loudness to the extent where my ears cant take it and my brain couldnt function..</div><div>couldnt think of things besides focusing on the songs simply coz the music was too loud to be ignored... louder than my own thoughts that keep echoing in my head non stop... </div><div>after that felt a sense of peace and calmness and somehow knew what i was going to do abt all the problems.. </div><div>everything felt insignificantly small and soft to my ears which was almost half deaf by then... </div><div><br /></div><div>for church.. i think i somehow know what i should do abt it and how imma gonna do it...</div><div>for that ridiculous thought.. i still have no idea how to stop it but i think i can control them better now... its reali ridiculous la! thinking abt him again.. didnt expect that i will be lidat again.. esp when almost 2 years had passed since i gave up... lol. =p</div><div>but so why is it coming back now? esp after knowing that little information that was told to me?</div><div>why? for that i have no answer... so i shall just have to figure out slowly or wait for it to die off again or for me to cut myself away from that feeling and simply just see him as a friend like how i i had that almost 2 years ago... :) </div><div>so yep.. another one down..</div><div>and for internship.. i still gt another 2 more weeks to ponder on.. so no rush yet i guess? :)</div><div>its just me panicking and making myself stress up for no good reason..</div><div>stupid!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>and for school.. i think i can just endure pass it ba.. no big deal.. i have beem through this before...</div><div>i can survive the ordeal... </div><div><br /></div><div>in conclusion, all the problems are peanuts to me! </div><div>i can survive them!</div><div>NO BIG DEAL MAN! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>*note to self: yea! serene! keep the positive attitude and u can shine despite all the shit things and shit people in ur life! :D JIAYOU!! HAHA! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5436932936823907797?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-11720147456495703212011-11-28T11:32:00.003+08:002011-11-29T22:42:59.540+08:00decided to change back to the old blogskin... the previous one de font like so big.. make all my post look like so super damn ling lidat only... =p <div><br /></div><div>time for grumbles... yea like again.. i know.. :(</div><div>u can skip the post if u are sick of my all time grumbling abt my life and family... </div><div>yea.. that's prolly what u should do now... </div><div>see the little red cross at the top right hand corner of ur screen...</div><div>yep! juz hover ur cursor there now and click once on it... thank you! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>so its two against one at home against me going to church?</div><div>whats the big deal with me keep going?</div><div>its not like imma asking ur to go oso rigth? since when ur oso wont one to go in the 1st place...</div><div>HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE WHO DONT UNDERSTAND AND STILL WANT TO JUDGE ME!!!</div><div>esp when the person was suppose to be the one the SHOULD understand and know me the best! </div><div>totally DISAPPOINTED in her... </div><div>keep on harping and trying to deter me from going to church..</div><div>is not like we are strict buddist in the 1st place... and plus the fact that i have always considered myself as a half free thinker... </div><div>SO WHAT'S THE BIG DEAL?</div><div><br /></div><div>u keep on insisting that it is a cult group.. :(</div><div>but have u even stop and asked urself y i like going there and keep going back to church despite whatever u said and threaten to do?</div><div>the ans is so obvious... NO! </div><div>so here im telling~ prolly u wont even get a chance to read this though.. but still.. haha! </div><div><br /></div><div>at least when i go there i have something to do!</div><div>lots of friends that will care abt me and ask me how was my week and stuff lidat... </div><div>show me all the care and concern that i always wanted..</div><div>it is such a big family there where people all know what is happening in each others lives and care for each other, pray the best for each other..</div><div><br /></div><div>and home? what abt it? </div><div>i have totally nth to do at home..</div><div>cant even laugh freely at the top of my voice... talk louder abit u gimme that irritating stare!</div><div>like what is wrong la! shouldnt home be somewhere that i can express myself freely? </div><div>like real... i feel like im more of a prisoner at home... </div><div>otherwise will be seeing u and sister 'cold war' everytime! </div><div>DO U EVEN HAVE THE SLIGHTEST IDEA HOW SICK I AM OF ALL THIS! </div><div>sick to the degree that i have stop caring abt whatever that is happening to ur...</div><div>that i have gave up hope on this not happening anymore!</div><div><br /></div><div>u are always so concern and buried deep in ur work... yea i understand that u need to work to feed me... for that im grateful... but surely u have that few seconds to spare and ask me how was sch and abt things that im doing right? </div><div>but sad to say no u dont...</div><div>can u even see that im not happy in sch... </div><div>no u dont... </div><div>all u can see is the mask that i try to hide myself behind and believe in whatever u see...</div><div>at least in church i can be who i am! free to do anything! no need to hide myself behind a ton of masks and pretend to be someone that is not the real me... </div><div><br /></div><div>whatever... u never understand me and i dont think u will either...</div><div>u wont even come across this post either... and i don care! </div><div><br /></div><div>all i pray to God now is that things at home can improve... that's all im asking for right now :)</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>to end on the lighter note...</div><div>imma emce-ing for the NYE event!! </div><div>woots~~ XD</div><div>excited much yo!! </div><div>have never mcee-d before in my life!! </div><div>looking forward to it!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>fine la... seriously no mood to happy at the moment..</div><div>waiting to go out later with boon and tkl! </div><div>hopefully they can make me smile!! :D</div><div>and i think cmf will de!</div><div>they are like the few true and best friends that i have! :D</div><div>very glad to have friends like them! </div><div>can talk anything under the sun, moon and stars with them! </div><div>esp that <b>PAKCIK BOON</b>! haha! :D he cmf gonna glare at me when he see this! =x</div><div>gonna watch breaking dawn later!! </div><div>highly anticipated for it!! </div><div>cmf will make me forget all my unhappiness!! </div><div>pls breaking dawn please be nice to me alritex!! </div><div>high hopes on u!! </div><div>WAHAHAHAHA!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>gonna prepare ald! otherwise later late =x</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1172014745649570321?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-772782599837876212011-11-17T22:10:00.002+08:002011-11-18T22:14:14.889+08:00second integration lesson today!! <div>enjoyed myself again! :D</div><div>learnt about the 5 assurances and blessings... </div><div>quite easy for me to understand...</div><div>tried praying in tongues together with zhi han and edwin...</div><div>was a nice experience for me... :)</div><div>looking forward to service on sunday! </div><div>then can try praying in tongues together with the rest during service! </div><div>haha! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-77278259983787621?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-77618694720703391182011-11-16T22:12:00.002+08:002011-11-16T22:20:46.814+08:00quick update before i hit the sack..<div>haha! :D</div><div>tiring day today...</div><div>like a waste of time oso lo...</div><div>2 hrs of lecture then 2 hrs of break..</div><div>then 2 hrs of tut then break for 2 hrs again before the guest lecture...</div><div>like wth man!</div><div>hate having so many breaks la! </div><div>like waste of my time only :(</div><div><br /></div><div>anw things are back to normal with my friend ald!!</div><div>can joke and play ard like normal le! </div><div>whee~~ happygirl93 now! </div><div>HAHAHA! :DDD</div><div>reali have to thank God for making me come to my senses and for giving me that courage to apologize to her...</div><div><br /></div><div>second integration tmr after sch!! </div><div>much anticipated for it! haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>shall go and hit the sack now! </div><div>aku tak boleh tahan ald!! </div><div>hehes... =p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7761869472070339118?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-82168367891856397242011-11-14T16:33:00.003+08:002011-11-14T16:43:08.930+08:00wasted half a day as usual... haha!<div>no more monday blues this sem but gt tue blues! LOL! =p</div><div>was supposed to have integration lesson today de..</div><div>but was changed to thurs instead... sadded! </div><div>was looking forward to it!</div><div>nvm thurs is like only a few more days away nia..</div><div>haha! </div><div><br /></div><div>work ytd was as boring as usual..</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>pity that i cant go for service ytd..</div><div>heard from them that pastor opened up a new topic of excellence ytd...</div><div>and that the service at the HOGC was reali powerful... </div><div>nvm shall get zhi han to tell me more abt it on thurs during my integration lesson with him!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>gonna try to clear all my sch work during the weekdays so that i can go for service this sun! </div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>time for me to get some work done!! </div><div>hopefully can finish all my tutorials by today!! =x</div><div>haha! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8216836789185639724?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-22355105672465107032011-11-12T22:54:00.003+08:002011-11-12T23:56:37.716+08:00busy and happening week for me!! <div>went to work on monday...</div><div>was actually rotting in the shop lo! =p </div><div>watching movies that was being played at starhub for the whole day... =p </div><div>busied myself with school...</div><div>also quarrelled with my friend :(</div><div>indirectly though..</div><div>haha! </div><div>kinda childish i think... =p</div><div>went for my 1st integration lesson on thurs!</div><div>very interesting indeed!! looking forward for the next one on monday! :D</div><div>i think the integration lesson was also somewhat like a wake up call to me...</div><div>to make me reflect on what i had done to my friend...</div><div>it was like God was speaking to me..</div><div>telling me that i had done something wrong..</div><div>that i shouldn't spoil my friendship with my friend over such minor thing..</div><div>that i should cherish that friendship that i have with her..</div><div>telling me that i should not be so narrow minded like how i had always been... </div><div>reali made me reflect alot...</div><div>then apologized to my friend that very night...</div><div>something that i have never done before lo! </div><div>those who know me would know that i would never say 'sorry' regardless of what i have done...</div><div>even if i was in the wrong... imma juz too strong headed to be doing such things.. =p </div><div>but the next day when i saw her in sch it wasnt as awkward ald...</div><div>things were better.. reali had to thank God for giving me the courage that night to go and apologise to my friend.. </div><div>haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>went to work today and was rotting as usual..</div><div>working tmr again.. which means i cant go for service tmr.. :(</div><div>sadded much la! </div><div>somemore they are going to the HoGC (Heart of God Church) tmr eh! </div><div>heard that it is like a once a year thing that they have! :(</div><div>wanna so badly to hear what Pastor Kong will preach la! </div><div>heard that his preach are super power or something...</div><div>wanna experience oso la! </div><div>sians... ZZzzzz :(</div><div>cmf gonna rot again like today de lo... there nth for me to watch oso... sians... :(</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-2235510567246510703?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-54652059797061405242011-11-06T11:52:00.000+08:002011-11-12T22:54:02.351+08:00went to church again today!! <div>was super fun! </div><div>pastor and the other CGs prayed for us after pastor's preach..</div><div>was an awesome experience for me! </div><div>had BBQ in the evening...</div><div>busy-ed myself helping Chantel throughout the whole afternoon preparing food for the bbq...</div><div>the food was naise!! :D</div><div>and i managed to did alot of socializing with all the awesome peeps over at the church and talk to them</div><div>after bbq was movie time! </div><div>the movie was reali fantastic! </div><div>:D</div><div>after movie everyone helped to clear and wash all the things used for the bbq..</div><div>then went home... </div><div>didnt realised that it was actually quite late ald...</div><div>time seriously flies past super fast when im having fun lo... :(</div><div>haha! </div><div>managed to squeeze on the last train...</div><div>then jason walked home with me and we talked about so many things!</div><div>been a long time since i had such a great night walk home with friend and talking endlessly about stuff... HAHA! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>basically to sum up.. i actually did enjoyed myself ttm today!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>coming thurs imma meeting zhi han for my first lesson on being a Christian... cant reali rmb what the lesson was supposed to be called... haha! :D</div><div>looking forward to it!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5465205979706140524?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-67663856719572246112011-11-02T22:14:00.003+08:002011-11-02T22:24:16.864+08:00haven been blogging lately... <div>becoming more and more lazy... =x</div><div>anw a quick update on what i have been doing! =p </div><div><br /></div><div>went to church last sunday with audrey they all..</div><div>enjoyed myself quite alot! haha! :D</div><div>the topic that the pastor preached that day was very thought provoking and reali made me reflect on my actions... </div><div>the topic was to honour our parents...</div><div>reali made me reflect on how i had treated mama in the past...</div><div>shall try my best to be a good girl now! haha! :D</div><div>then went to RP and mugged for my tlaw that was on monday with nikki while he did his assignment.. </div><div><br /></div><div>tlaw paper on monday wasnt reali hard...</div><div>but some of the points i couldn't rmb... :( </div><div>and didn't reali had enough time for section b.. :(</div><div>coz i think i was too tired and stoned halfway through the paper... </div><div>ended up writing crap... </div><div>haix....</div><div>hope i wont get too bad a grade...</div><div>at least a pass i hope.. =x</div><div><br /></div><div>tue zhi han came and had lunch with us...</div><div>abit awkward between him and the girls but became better as they started to talk... :)</div><div>but this somehow ridiculously sparked off another scandal for me...</div><div>like =.=! ...</div><div>all thanks to that auntie suyu and regina la!! </div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>overall the week went quite well i guess..</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>time for me to do tutorials ald! :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6766385671957224611?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-54417125810599940302011-10-27T14:58:00.002+08:002011-10-27T15:08:31.282+08:00rotting away at the library...<div>had ald rotted for like 5 hours since 10am...</div><div>kinda suay today i think...</div><div>woke up with a sore and painful and swollen eye... :(</div><div>then came to sch and was running late...</div><div>rushed like shit...</div><div>juz before reaching the classroom block friend texted me to say that class was cancelled..</div><div>wth~~ </div><div>had revision lecture later on at 4...</div><div>no choice had to stay in sch...</div><div>travelling home and back again would simply be a waste of time...</div><div>haix... either way is not right for me.. =.=</div><div>lousy sch la! </div><div>teacher mc oso never email us earlier to say..</div><div>they sent the email in the morning at 9.40am when our lesson is at 10am...</div><div>what is the use of the email then? </div><div>lols..</div><div>sians.... </div><div><br /></div><div>and its raining heavily outside now...</div><div>hope that it would stop soon.. or at least when i have to drag myself out of the library and go to lecture... </div><div>otherwise sure drench de...</div><div>sucks la the teacher... book the classroom until so far away de... have to walk so far~~ :(</div><div><br /></div><div>thank god im wearing long sleeved today...</div><div>otherwise i would have freezed to death...<br />shall go and continue watching my drama!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5441712581059994030?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-35917186785274028732011-10-22T22:07:00.002+08:002011-10-22T22:31:29.010+08:00great, meaningful and wonderful day spent today!! <div>well spent i would say!! HAHA!! :D<div>managed to complete some of my tutorial in the morning...<br /><div>went to the botanic garden in the afternoon!! </div></div><div>haven been there since a long time ald! :D</div><div>everything has changed so much that i dont even felt like i have been there before..</div><div>the last time i went was prolly ard my pri sch time i guess? haha! </div><div><br /></div><div>had a small picnic there with Audrey's fiends! :D</div><div>cool and fun peeps!! :D</div><div>super friendly too! :D</div><div>lots of fun and laughter throughout! </div><div>haven spent my time so well for a long time ald...</div></div><div>everyday is juz either slacking or nua-ing at home if i not in sch or working... =p </div><div>should join them often i think... </div><div>ok la... if i have the time la! =p</div><div><br /></div><div>anw <span class="Apple-style-span" >tip</span> for going to the botanic garden...</div><div><span class="Apple-style-span" >ALWAYS GO TO THE TOILET FIRST!!</span> </div><div>we had a hard time looking for toilet for rainie!! </div><div>poor rainie became the 'joke' of the day... </div><div>haha! :D </div><div><br /></div><div>time to get more work done! :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3591718678527402873?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-3824066652734513032011-10-20T12:39:00.002+08:002011-10-20T12:47:28.421+08:00currently slacking at the sch's lib waiting for time to pass...<div>damn sian la...</div><div>if it is not for the training that i have to go later i would have happily went back home right after class ends and grab some slp...</div><div>and jolly well be almost reaching home ald.. =p </div><div>but well... have to sacrifice some things if i wanna money right?</div><div>coz no training no work, no work no money, no money then no party time...</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>this is how the world goes i guess? :)</div><div>have to 'earn' it... lols... XD</div><div><br /></div><div>literally crapping now... too bored i guess..</div><div>no mood to do any work right now...</div><div>so im like wasting my time and life away rotting in the lib...</div><div>blogging is the next best thing that i can think of doing besides falling aslp waiting for time... :)</div><div>yea... it all goes to show how lazy a person i am...</div><div>HAHA!! </div><div>ikr! =p</div><div><br /></div><div>cant think anymore... that's all...</div><div>i think i shall juz go and shit now! </div><div>lols!! gross!! i know...</div><div>cant believe i actually posting abt such thing... =p </div><div>WAHAHAHA!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>okok!! i reali need to shit now! like NOW!!</div><div>haha! :DDDD</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-382406665273451303?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-49274199604339771902011-10-19T00:01:00.004+08:002011-10-19T00:32:13.586+08:001st day of sch jiu have presentation!! <div>but went quite well!!</div><div>managed not to look at the script at all! yipee!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>ok... grumbling part 1st... =p </div><div>it may sound kinda childish but this is what happen when people provoke me when i ald not in a awesome mood... </div><div>it just sets me off... be it that it is a small matter... i don care..</div><div>that is me..</div><div>either u accept it or otherwise don befriend me... </div><div>it's as simple as that.. :)</div><div><br /></div><div>seriously i <span class="Apple-style-span" ><i><b>DO NOT</b></i></span>, let me say again <span class="Apple-style-span"><i><b>DO NOT NEED</b></i></span> people to criticise on what i wear, buy or do!! </div><div>knowing how to wear a pair of heels and wanting to wear it is two separate matters altogether..</div><div>get it right girl!</div><div>i don need ur opinion...</div><div>so what if i rarely wear and still bought a pair of heels that is taller than my current one is <span class="Apple-style-span"><i><b>MY PROBLEM!! NOT YOURS! </b></i></span></div><div>claiming to be my friend when u dono me at all...like seriously.. -.-</div><div>so just shut up! </div><div><br /></div><div>hmmm... that's all i gues... :)</div><div><br /></div><div>anw audery and chantel came to find me today after my sch end! :D</div><div>haven seen them for a long time ald! :D</div><div>their friends also came along and they were super friendly la!</div><div>ended up chatting with them like i knew them for a long time lidat!</div><div>HAHA!! :D</div><div>then they gave me a surprise la!! </div><div>they went to buy waffer from the waffertown and used it as a cake for me!</div><div>so sweet of them la!! :D</div><div>totally made my day man!! </div><div><br /></div><div>seriously this is like the worse and the best bdae i ever had!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4927419960433977190?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-78033216282434085442011-10-17T23:30:00.000+08:002011-10-19T00:01:46.071+08:00<div>1st-ly juz wanna say thanks to all the people that has wished me!! be it personally, on fb or sms!! greatly appreciated!! :D</div><div><br /></div>bdae today was so not a brilliant day at all... so not...<div>thanks to whoever that caused it... u know who u are...</div><div>imma not going to point out anyone...</div><div>i dont even mind going to sch to do project on such a day...</div><div>birthday is juz like any other normal day with juz a touch more of happiness than usual in it... or at least it was supposed to be like this...</div><div>but do u reali have to spoil my day like this... seriously think abt it..</div><div>have i ever spoilt ur day like this when the situation was the other way round?</div><div>think...</div><div>reflect...</div><div>that's all im asking from u... juz stay out of my way... thanks...</div><div>if u are unhappy or are unwilling to do anything then say out the 1st moment u have ur opinion..</div><div>thanks... i would reali appreciate that compared to u ruining my day totally like this...</div><div>seriously thanks for ruining my most anticipated 18th birthdae ever... thanks a hell lot for that yeah! :)</div><div>at least going back to sch to do project wasnt such a bad thing after all...</div><div>at least i was happy coz some of the not so close bother enough to wish me personally... :) thanks peeps! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>yep... that's all for today... :)</div><div><br /></div><div>i may have forgiven and not bring up the matter again but that doesnt meant that i have forgotten abt it...</div><div>not gonna expect anything more on my birthdays again... :)</div><div>it will be better like this... :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7803321628243408544?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-33110720752200891882011-10-16T19:21:00.002+08:002011-10-16T19:50:49.215+08:00great drinking session ytd with all the wonderful peeps at justin's hse! :)<div><div>haha! :D</div><div>bought bourbon whiskey and mix with spirit and green tea...</div><div>lols..</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>all drink until face red red!</div><div>funny much! </div></div><div>went back ard 3.30...</div><div>was supposed to be back before mama actually left for work..</div><div>but in the end went home slightly after she left home..</div><div>but luckily she never say anything when she came home from work today.. =p</div><div>prolly coz of sis... </div><div>haha! :D</div><div>coz she called mama when i reached home...</div><div>then i think in the morning mama called again and i think i heard her telling mama to 'fang xin' abt me la...</div><div>haha!</div><div>god... i love my sis man! </div><div>she's the one that always help me one me man! </div><div>haha! :D</div><div>thanks sis! =p </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3311072075220089188?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-23435043743658237442011-10-14T23:16:00.000+08:002011-10-15T13:47:26.556+08:00<div>come to think of it..</div><div>it feels weird that u came and talked to me so suddenly on msn ytd night after like so long...</div><div>but it kind of felt good in a way...</div><div>haven talk to u in ages..</div><div>kind of miss ur voice in a weird way..</div><div>the last time i rmb hearing ur voice was when u call during my birthday and wished me...</div><div>wondering if u would do the same thing again this year? </div><div><br /></div><div>crap~~ </div><div>why am i even entertaining such thoughts...</div><div>it's unhealthy for me..</div><div>and aren't i supposed to have gotten over everything? </div><div>it was all a history... WAS... no more in the present... </div><div><div>weird... seriuosly weird for me to have this kind of feeling... </div><div>after all, counting back it has been slightly more than a year since we ...... ... </div></div><div><br /></div><div>nah... i think imma crazy from lack of slp.. </div><div>shall hit the sack now... </div><div>don think too much... (yea something that i tell myself always but somehow they never seemed to work... over active brain.. always making up the impossible scenarios...)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-2343504374365823744?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-84956015250742732392011-10-13T14:57:00.003+08:002011-10-13T15:02:05.962+08:00changed blogskin!! <div>haha! :D</div><div>don reali like the design though...</div><div>LOLS!! </div><div>but i like the font! HAHA! :D</div><div>so think im gonna stick with this skin for awhile... =p</div><div>but the new skin de font oso super HUGE la! </div><div>make my ald very long and draggy post seems longer!! </div><div>hais... haha !</div><div>but who ask me to like the font so much...</div><div>teehee~~ XD</div><div>too bad idk how to do blogskin... :(</div><div>shall go and learn when i have to time ba... =p </div><div>till then! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8495601525074273239?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-69163230104585144292011-10-11T22:51:00.003+08:002011-10-11T23:08:24.256+08:00bored at home...<div>like seriously...</div><div>know that i need to study for tlaw but damn lazy and no mood to do so...</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>been nua-ing for the whole day at home ald..</div><div>sianz....</div><div>miss the days back in tianjin...</div><div>having friends all around me 24/7 round the clock...</div><div>friends all within a few steps...</div><div>there will always be someone to talk to me and fool around with me...</div><div>but here in sg esp at home.. is totally sian to the core man... </div><div>looking forward to the advance bdae celebration that friends are organizing for me...</div><div>haha! </div><div>another overnight ton-ing with friends!! </div><div>woots~~ </div><div>gonna be the second time that imma ton-ing ald...</div><div>don care what mama gonna say... juz gonna ton and drink till i drop man!</div><div>haha! </div><div>at least not so jialat... juz drink abit fun fun jiu hao...</div><div>thanks to the drinking session that time at tianjin i now think i have a idea of how well my limit is... haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>watching drama since evening till now! </div><div>should i continue watching or should i head to bed ald?</div><div>wanna wake up early tmr to do my OIE but damn sian...</div><div>=p</div><div>that's was what i said last night and in the end woke up at 12.30 today!! </div><div>haha! :D</div><div>dono why have been so super tired ever since i came back to sg...</div><div>think i have gotten too used to the life back there in tianjin ald la... XD</div><div>have to adjust back soon! otherwise cfm gg when sch starts! =p</div><div>think i shall watch one more episode and then head to bed and hopefully be able to drag my half-dead body out and get some work done tmr morning... </div><div>cant really imagine if i dont get it done tmr... cmf die!! </div><div>coz project meeting on fri and then thurs going out!! haha! </div><div>no time ald!! serene ho must buck up!! get your work done by tmr!! no matter wat!! haha! </div><div>LOL!! =p </div><div>then still need to study for tlaw finals eh!! </div><div>jyjy!! </div><div>though bdae is around the corner but my also study hard while playing hard!! </div><div>JYJY!! i can do this!!</div><div>LOLS... i sound like some siao ppl now la! </div><div>trying to psycho myself to study but contradicting myself at the same time... HAH! =p</div><div>realise i have been full of crap since the trip... haha! </div><div>shall try to control myself! =p </div><div>till then~~ :)<br /></div><div><br /></div><div>I MISS THE CAREFREE LIFE BACK IN TIANJIN!! :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6916323010458514429?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-68300084229918469202011-10-09T14:55:00.002+08:002011-10-09T15:45:54.380+08:00finally finished packing and tidied up all my stuff ald!! <div>HAHA!! :D</div><div>but poor mama still gt alot of clothes to wash... =p</div><div>all my clothes are hanging all over the house to wait for them to dry...</div><div>WAHAHA!! :D</div><div>still lazy to upload the trip photos sia...</div><div>i oso didnt took much pics... =p </div><div>most of them are in friends' de camera... </div><div>haha!! :D </div><div>shall upload later ba... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>super lazy to do project and study sia! :(</div><div>but looking on the brighter side if i can clear this module then when sch reopen i will be more free to go out ald! haha! :D</div><div>miss the weather there!! </div><div>suddenly feel that singapore is like freakingly hot can! sweating whole day when i dont even perspire in tianjin... </div><div><br /></div><div>miss all the knocking on my door at night and all my friends' voices when they are talking outside my door...</div><div>not quite used to the quietness of my corridor.. :/</div><div>miss all the night madness and gossips with vivien, suyu, pf and regina when we are doing project tgt...</div><div>not used to not being able to go find them and kajiao them as and when i like and knocking on their door then barging in like my own room lidat! haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>overall it has been a wonderful trip to tianjin! </div><div>really learnt alot there and it has really helped me to be more independent... :)</div><div>through the 5 weeks over there i have also gt to know more friends..</div><div>esp my new classmates!! :D</div><div>didnt really knew them before the trip but now i can talk and crap with them!! </div><div>they are all fun and wonderful peeps!! :D</div><div>cant wait for sch to reopen and talk to them more!! :D</div><div>the 3 days trip to beijing was also awesome!! </div><div>but the shopping experience was not so great.. they all anyhow give price de lo.. =p</div><div><br /></div><div>the last night was the most crazy one i think!! or for me at least! HAHA!! :D</div><div>most of us were drinking in KC's room!! haha! :D</div><div>KC's clique and zhourong's clique de guys and me... haha!</div><div>coz vien, suyu, pf and regina dont really wanna drink..</div><div>thought i will feel awkward at first but i turned out great! </div><div>they bought like a freaking 20 bottles of beer! and ard 12 breezer if im not wrong..</div><div>haha! :D </div><div>all drank until high lo... talk and luagh until super loudly lo... =p </div><div>drank 1 whole bottle of beer and the breezer! 1st time drink so much lo...</div><div>all thanks to zhuorong who keep clinking my bottle just to see me drink la! </div><div>miracle that i didnt get drunk...i didnt think i was drunk la... haha!</div><div>but my friend said i look abit drunk though... =p </div><div>but managed to wake up the next morning to do last min packing before we check out... =p</div><div>also must thank yeo khee for knocking on my door to wake me up... :D</div><div>shall wait until im legal and then ask them all out for another drinking session prolly... haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>miss all the fun there and the awesome peeps that were on the trip with me that made this such a awesome trip for me! :D</div><div>it was a great 5 weeks spent away from home! :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6830008422991846920?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-64968644285947069162011-10-08T11:03:00.002+08:002011-10-08T11:25:17.129+08:00back in singapore again!!<div>HAHA!! :D</div><div>kinda missing Tianjin ald.. =p</div><div>miss the weather there... </div><div>the weather freaking hot can! </div><div>haha! :D</div><div>feel like peeling off my skin</div><div>miss the coolness and the breeze there....</div><div>miss the school compound oso... </div><div>miss everything there...</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>everybody is crazily uploading all the trip pics! </div><div>phone keep vibrating non stop... =p</div><div>shall upload mine soon!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6496864428594706916?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-30110036575731457752011-09-26T22:50:00.003+08:002011-09-26T23:02:50.428+08:00juz a quick post since i gt time few spare minutes in my life now..<div>haha! :D<br /></div><div>time here seems to be passing like super fast these days...</div><div>its like another 10 more days and i can be back in sg ald...</div><div>suddenly feel abit sad to be leaving this place....</div><div>lols...</div><div>contradicting much.. i know... </div><div>haha! </div><div>its just that i have gotten so used to the life here ald...</div><div>and the freedom that i have here...</div><div>not that i hate mama to control me...</div><div>especially after being alone for so long..</div><div>but it's gonna take me some time again to adapt back to the life where i will be controlled by someone again..</div><div>haha! </div><div>ok.. i think im talking crap..</div><div>contradicting myself more and more with each sentence that i am typing...</div><div>too tired ald..</div><div>don even know what im trying to say...</div><div>but basically the point is that i am gonna miss the life here when i get back to sg even i have been complaining for god knows how much throughout my stay here... or at least up till last week to be exact... :D</div><div><br /></div><div>looking forward to sg and seeing mama again!!</div><div>she said she will come and fetch me on the night that i am arriving!!!</div><div>happy much!!</div><div>lols...</div><div>haha! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3011003657573145775?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-22391203548352321932011-09-25T15:59:00.002+08:002011-09-25T16:19:39.600+08:00its sunday!! but it so totally doesnt feel like it la! :(<div>staying in dorm for the whole day just to complete tutorial and reflective journal!! </div><div>sian ttm man!! </div><div>wts!</div><div>busy with project for the past two weeks...</div><div>sleeping late every night.. :(</div><div>which is why haven been blogging although i have VPN to access blogger... =p</div><div>too much late nights and insufficient slp have made me sick ald la! </div><div>down with sore throat a few days ago coz didnt drink enough water and air here super dirty...</div><div>then now down with flu and cough...</div><div>wts man! :(</div><div>hope i can recover faster..</div><div>just told mama that im better last night and the moment i went back to my room my nose started 'running' again...</div><div>haix...</div><div>sad life man! :(</div><div><br /></div><div>done with tutorial ald... </div><div>left with reflective journal for today.. </div><div>hopefully can finish it coz tues is the deadline!!!</div><div>all the things are like super rush here lo!! </div><div>then still have common test!!</div><div>and i haven study a single shit.. :(</div><div>worse thing! i dont even have a single idea of what the teacher have been teaching so far la!! </div><div>sucker man!! </div><div><br /></div><div>tonight still have dorm check!!</div><div>like mafan only lo!! </div><div><br /></div><div>i think enough of grumbling...</div><div>its time i think i shall turn back to my journal and try to complete it by tonight so that i can rest tmr... </div><div><br /></div><div>its 11 more days before i can fly back home!!</div><div>yipee!!</div><div>miss mama lots lots!! :D</div><div>kinda happy and sad though...</div><div>like lame only...</div><div>haha!</div><div>coz too use to living here ald..</div><div>and also living alone...</div><div>though i will still miss home sometimes..</div><div>but not as bad compared to the 1st week... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>till then~~ :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-2239120354835232193?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-82987648107260741512011-09-13T23:50:00.003+08:002011-09-14T00:10:55.630+08:00finally can re-access to fb again la!!<div>after the access to fb on monday i haven been able to access to it coz of the stupid NP VPN that always fail me!!</div><div>think NP have some grudge against me lo!! hehes... =p</div><div>but now i can access again!!</div><div>all thanks to ah boon!! haha! </div><div>this zhu peng hao you of mine!!</div><div>=p</div><div><br /></div><div>one week has past..</div><div>feels fast and slow at the same time..</div><div>esp when there is still like one more month to go b4 i can go back to my beloved sg and family and friends... </div><div>miss them lots!</div><div>but homesickness have improved much...</div><div>unlike last week which was so terrible that i cried so hard both times when mama called and talk to me...</div><div>cant even control myself i juz cried straight on the phone like a child... =p</div><div>think i totally freaked out my mama ald!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>but juz used ms ng's skpye today afternoon and called home...</div><div>didnt cry at all today.. haha! </div><div>assured mama that im not missing home ald... or at least not that much that i would cry anytime when i on the phone with her! haha! :D</div><div>felt better after letting mama know that im adapting to this sucky cheena land slowly ald...</div><div>at least i know that she wont worry so much abt me compared to last week.. haha! :D</div><div>she was so surprised to hear my voice and calling her 'mama' today lo!! </div><div>haha! :D miss her kind of surprised look that she sometimes wore when i surprised her with something.. =p </div><div><br /></div><div>ytd was mid autumn festival...</div><div>made some mooncakes taught by the chef that the school had organized for us...</div><div>then at night went out to set the 'kong ming' lantern!</div><div>fun man!</div><div>haha! :D </div><div>memorable mid autumn festival ever!</div><div>but sad that mama not with me to set the kong ming lantern! </div><div><br /></div><div>needa go and do all those freaking projects ald la!</div><div>difficult siah!!</div><div>shit the school!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>hope that the internet will be good to me and help me find and load all the infor i need fast fast!! </div><div>and hopefully the VPN that boon helped me dl will help as well!! HAHA!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8298764810726074151?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-56594194447203236532011-09-05T23:26:00.002+08:002011-09-05T23:47:27.833+08:00finally can use fb here in this cheena land! <div>have been here for almost 4 days ald but still nowhere to getting used to the life here...</div><div>first time using such a long time to actually adapt to an environment lo! </div><div>most is use two or three days jiu can adapt ald lo...</div><div>lousy la this cheena la! :(</div><div><br /></div><div>the dorm is like seriously dirty like a piece of shit man! </div><div>spent so much time wiping and cleaning the room..</div><div>but still as dirty as ever...</div><div>LIFE SUCKS HERE LA! </div><div>miss home man! </div><div>i miss my bed! my clean and sparkling and home that my mum tries so hard to keep up!! :(</div><div>i miss my mama, didi, sister and friends! :(</div><div><br /></div><div>and sch sucks la! </div><div>most of us oso don have access to internet lo! </div><div>but luckily my room is one of the few that have..</div><div>phew~~ =p </div><div>which oso explains why there is alot of ppl knocking on my door every night asking to use the internet!</div><div>but nvm la.. lively ar my room! haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>but i just seriously don understand why the teacher cant help to get this problem fix lo...</div><div>up till now still alot of room don have internet!</div><div>and yet they want us to do project!</div><div>how on earth are we going to research for the materials that we need without the internet!</div><div>this is utterly crap man! </div><div>and the phone card oso!!</div><div>it has been dragging for days! </div><div>and just now ms ng just gave me my card but i was told that i cant use it to call overseas!!</div><div>holly crap la! </div><div>waste of my money man!!</div><div>$20 eh!!</div><div>she should know that the reason that most of us want the phone card is so that we can call home and chat with our parents!</div><div>WASTE MY MONEY SIA!! :(</div><div><br /></div><div>just went our to teacher's room to use her skype to call back home...</div><div>miss mama sia! like seriously! :(</div><div>and my bro de voice was so surprised when he picked up the phone and heard me calling him!</div><div>HAHA! EPIC SIA!! =p</div><div><br /></div><div>hmmm.... that's most prolly abt what i want to say and complaint! for now at least! think there will be more to come!</div><div>HAHA! </div><div>just watch this space for more!! =p </div><div>p.s. provided that u don find me naggy! MUAHAHAHAHA!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5659419444720323653?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-37470505316340690422011-09-01T23:52:00.002+08:002011-09-02T00:01:20.450+08:00few more hours to my flight! <div>excited much! </div><div>conflicting feelings too... </div><div>miss singapore and my family and friends ald... </div><div>shall see all of you in an approx one month's time!! haha! :D</div><div>hope China gt access to blogger...</div><div>shall blog again soon! </div><div>till then!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3747050531634069042?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-56579937912718367722011-08-30T20:51:00.002+08:002011-08-30T20:53:55.572+08:00two more days! <div>gonna leave my beloved Singapore for a month plus in just a few days more! </div><div>mixed feelings.. =p</div><div>haven even started packing yet lo!</div><div>wth!</div><div>haha! </div><div>so freaking lazy to go and pack my stuff....</div><div>anybody wanna volunteer to help me pack?</div><div>muahahaha!! :D</div><div> <br /></div><div>nth much for todae! LOLS!! XD</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5657993791271836772?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-77039480506824051822011-08-26T20:19:00.003+08:002011-08-26T20:28:52.901+08:00finally the end of the exams!!<div>woots~~ :D</div><div>end of the semester!!</div><div>nth more to worry and stress me about!! </div><div>no more sleepless nights worrying and stressing about projects, assignments, tutorials and all that crap.. =p </div><div>but this wont be for long before the vicious cycle repeats itself again.. :(</div><div>HAHA! </div><div> <br /></div><div>next up will be my OIP trip to China, Tian Jin... :D</div><div>by this time next week i would be already there! </div><div>excited much!! :D</div><div>leaving on a morning flight and have to report at the airport at 6.30am...</div><div>which means i have to wake up like damn early and have to catch the first bus there...</div><div>but dont think its gonna be a problem...</div><div>coz if i would be able to sleep a wink that will be a miracle!! </div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>can nap abit on the plane anw.. =p </div><div>shall be back in ard a month's time!! XD</div><div> <br /></div><div>shall get as much rest as i can over these few days</div><div>haven reali rested well for the past couple of days due to constant mugging</div><div>this is always wat happens to me during exam period..</div><div>don want to start study early then last min try to cramp everything and sacrifice my slp.. :(</div><div> <br /></div><div>anw according to the itinerary..</div><div>the whole trip is so damn pack la!</div><div>everyday oso gt lessons! </div><div>sian ttm! </div><div>but hopefully will enjoy myself there with my friends!! :D</div><div> <br /></div><div>gonna buy tons and tons of clothes back!</div><div>hope i wont used up all my money there and have to end up borrowing from my friends! =p </div><div> <br /></div><div>it's gonna be party time!! woots~~ :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7703948050682405182?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-84138452691335271242011-08-22T23:43:00.002+08:002011-08-23T00:05:08.685+08:00went out to study with foong oi at RP today...<div>but was literally stoning there for the whole day lo..</div><div>sians... </div><div>machiam no mood to study lo...</div><div>nth going in... :(</div><div> <br /></div><div>anw almost fainted while i was outside today..</div><div>was initially having breakfast with foong oi at the market de...</div><div>after eating wanted to go to the washroom... </div><div>walking halfway then suddenly this 'upward flow of the blood pressure' rush up to my brain... </div><div>thought nth of it... coz always experience this at home and it always pass after a few seconds...</div><div>so juz continue walking...</div><div>but suddenly i could see... as in my vision blurred out totally... </div><div>and there was this irritating ringing in my ears that kept me from listening clearly to my surrounding...</div><div>freaking frightening lo...</div><div>then couldn't reali feel my legs and all i could feel at that point of time was giddiness... </div><div>fell against the wall and used it to stabilize myself.. </div><div>tried to walk again despite not being able to see a single shit at that point of time...lols... haha! </div><div>after two steps when my palms was away from the wall i fell again...</div><div>but luckily this time got one uncle managed to caught hold of me from the back... </div><div>managed to heard him asked me if i was okay despite the irritating ringing in my ears...</div><div>i think i oso hit myself against something lo... </div><div>didnt reali knew what i hit myself against coz couldnt see anything then!! </div><div>machiam a blind girl la! :(</div><div>but oso know that it was pain...</div><div>further prove by the bruise that appeared at the spot where i think i knock against... =p </div><div>oso gt auntie keep on asking me if i need medical oil... </div><div>told them i only one to go to the toilet and one auntie bought me inside...</div><div>seriously must reali thank all these kind-hearted aunties and uncles... </div><div>otherwise i sure faint in the street de lo.. =p</div><div> <br /></div><div>after awhile managed to regained my sight and hearing...</div><div>phew~~ scary much.. </div><div>haha! :D</div><div> <br /></div><div>went i went back to the table and told foong oi abt wat happen, the uncle that helped me saw me and asked me if i was alright... :)</div><div>he oso told me to go see a doctor... haha! </div><div>looks like there are still far more kind-hearted souls around.. :)</div><div>juz that i haven met them all..</div><div>haha! :D hope this wont happen again.. =p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8413845269133527124?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-53367308290897758822011-08-16T23:42:00.002+08:002011-08-17T00:29:07.748+08:00feeling slightly better but still like shit after that piece of news that auntie told me..<div> <br /></div><div>yes.. i do wonder where my 'dad' is sometimes in the middle of the night or when i am daydreaming...</div><div>just when i have come to terms with the fact that i could not have a proper dad to accompany me in my growing stages unlike most of the other kids and my friends... </div><div>why? WHY? </div><div>why do u have to even appear and let my relative spot u... to even see that u are still alive.. that u are still in Singapore?</div><div>为什么你就不要死回 malaysia and never let me hear abt u again?</div><div> <br /></div><div>hearing abt this news is seriously not doing me great...</div><div>i seriously cant forget that harm and hurt that u have inflicted on me...</div><div>depriving me of the childhood that i could have enjoyed and experienced...</div><div>instead, i was forced to grow up and mature at such an age...</div><div>not being able to be childish even for a single moment... </div><div>seriously I HATE U!! </div><div>why did u have to appear and bring me into this state of helplessness and hopelessness!! :(</div><div>there is nth that i can do!! </div><div>on one hand i HATE YOU TO THE CORE!! but on the other hand i have always wished that i have a dad and can u a daddy's girl like all my other friends...</div><div>to be pampered and showered with care and concern..</div><div>to be able to go on family trips like a normal family that i have always seen outside... :(</div><div> <br /></div><div>and what mama said to me after hearing it oso doesnt help me at all...</div><div>it somehow just worsen my emotions like totally.. =.=</div><div>not that im blaming her... </div><div>i too understand how she feels... moreover what she went through then was a thousand, a million time worse than mine.. :(</div><div>but saying to me: "in your dictionary, there is no such word as 'papa'.." </div><div>seriously dont u think that these words are abit harsh for me?</div><div>though i may have grown up and have fully understand the whole situation... :(</div><div> <br /></div><div>sometimes i just want to disappear from this world.. even for a short moment...</div><div>to run away from all this problems!</div><div> <br /></div><div>ALL I WANT IS PEACE! </div><div>TO GROW UP LIKE ANY NORMAL KID..</div><div>SURROUNDED BY A WARM, CARING AND COMPLETE FAMILY...</div><div>WHY CANT I HAVE IT? :(</div><div> <br /></div><div>is it reali too much to ask for? </div><div>maybe... maybe this is just too much...</div><div>maybe i have asked for this too late.. :(</div><div> <br /></div><div>sometimes i rather that he had died...</div><div>died trying to do something to feed the family..</div><div>if he was a mother.. i rather he died giving birth to me...</div><div>at least this way i would rmb him... for his effort bringing me to this world..</div><div>at least either way he had tried had enough to do something that is worthy enough for me to miss him...</div><div> <br /></div><div>i might have been happier... missing him like this... </div><div> <br /></div><div>unlike now... he totally doesnt deserve me to even miss him...</div><div>but it's not like i can help it....</div><div>coz all i want is a complete family... :(</div><div> <br /></div><div>i might have been happier...</div><div>i could have been happier...</div><div>i definitely deserve to be happier...</div><div> <br /></div><div> <br /></div><div> <br /></div><div>but somehow all this could only be a small dream of mine...</div><div>never to be fulfilled.. :(</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5336730829089775882?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-30978961030434734642011-08-13T23:27:00.002+08:002011-08-13T23:43:10.037+08:00just when on a shopping spree with jin hui today!! :D<div>haven had such fun with her for a long time ald! </div><div>was actually 'supposed' to pei her walk walk shop shop de...</div><div>but ended up me buy the most things and spent the most!! HAHA! </div><div>lunch-ed at mac then went to bugis street to walk walk...</div><div>gotten my wallet which i wanted to change for a long time ald...</div><div>and we both gt the same one!! yipee!! hehes... =p</div><div>i got the purple one and she got the brown one</div><div>then walk walk shop shop around... </div><div>gotten another sleeveless top and another pair of shorts...</div><div>WAHAHAHA!! :D</div><div>weather have been so freaking hot and humid these days..</div><div>now super obsessed with sleeveless shirt! =p </div><div>bought five of them in just a month!! hehes... =p </div><div>bought a bag as well... </div><div>have been wanting a new bag for a long time ald... =p </div><div> <br /></div><div>spent super alot today la!</div><div>bought almost $60 plus out and when home with only $4 left...</div><div>WTH!!</div><div>HAHA! </div><div>needa save up la!!</div><div>cant spend anymore next week and the following week ald... T_T</div><div>have to save up for my funds for my OIP trip in Sep.. =p</div><div>gonna go for more shopping spree in China again! </div><div>then when come back gonna go for a dinner spree with jin hui again just as i promised!!</div><div>YAY!! :D</div><div> <br /></div><div>heading to bed now...</div><div>work tmr again...</div><div>sians.. :(</div><div>no motivation to work...</div><div>but no work no money...</div><div>no money no shopping/ dinner spree... :(</div><div>think the shopping spree today will push me to work tmr ba!</div><div>haha! </div><div>considering the amount of money i spent today... =p </div><div>nights!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3097896103043473464?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-69289245452131389472011-08-03T11:26:00.002+08:002011-08-03T11:39:54.475+08:00its BCOMM again... sian max...<div>listening to 20 e-port folio presentations of my classmates... :/</div><div>luckily mine is over ald...</div><div>had my share on Monday itself...</div><div>don think i did very well for it though... </div><div>coz i didnt had a script prepared with me...</div><div>and i only sleep for a freaking record of ONE HOUR!! :(</div><div>like =.= only lo...</div><div>so tired max and had to impromptu on the spot as i was presenting...</div><div>though i think i did not perform as well as i wanted to, but still i think i have done better than what i expected..</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>own personal record broken!! </div><div>slept only one hour nia and still managed to present in front of two classes while impromptu-ing on the spot...</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>but sad part is that i didnt managed to finish up all my points... sian!! haha! :D</div><div>stutter too much ald... shall try to improve and not stutter so much next time... hehes... :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6928924545213138947?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-27445228636417568182011-07-24T23:46:00.002+08:002011-07-24T23:58:01.236+08:00something i wanted to post about awhile back..<div>haven got the chance and time then..</div><div>so here i am now! haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>reali hate people who judge other people..</div><div>so what if the places that i went with my friends are always the same?</div><div>so what if the places that i go is none other than cwp and not town?</div><div>so what if i always wear the same thing to sch?</div><div>so what if besides t-shirts and shorts i own nth more of a variety of clothing?</div><div>so what if i wear t-shirt and shorts to town?</div><div><br /></div><div>yea.. i know... im like repeating all the things..</div><div>u get the idea...</div><div><br /></div><div>reali dislike people that judge me...</div><div>i know! imma pathetic in a way...</div><div>wearing the same thing to sch everyday...</div><div>even if i go out i still wear the same thing..</div><div>but so what?</div><div>i like the way i am... the way i dress...</div><div>accept me for who i am...</div><div>don like..</div><div>then don comment...</div><div>keep ur mouth shut...</div><div>i don give a damn...</div><div>not like i will take in all ur comments..</div><div>maybe not all at least... </div><div><br /></div><div>that's abt all i wanna say... </div><div>there should be more i guess? lols...</div><div>cant reali think properly... </div><div>brain dead much after a whole day of doing work... </div><div>shall add on again if i happen to rmb more... =p </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-2744522863641756818?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-10771260090008016232011-07-24T23:42:00.003+08:002011-07-25T00:02:42.120+08:00finally done with the prezi and ppt for tmr's PMKT presentation! :D<div>gonna slp soon...</div><div>10 hours gone today just like this...</div><div>sians..</div><div>didn't even get to play or rest lo...</div><div>sad ttm...</div><div>lols...</div><div>anw special thanks to my coconut brain didi...</div><div>for volunteering to buy lunch today! for like the first time lo!!</div><div>miracle! WAHAHA!! :D</div><div>he also helped me cooked maggi mee for me dinner lo!!</div><div>thanks much much!!</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>shall go slp soon ald... :)</div><div>brain dead much after one whole day of chionging for work...</div><div>broke my own record ald i guess? </div><div>10 hours with no facebook and twitter...</div><div>just purely doing work...</div><div>only some break in between for lunch and dinner...</div><div>and perhaps some small talks with my bro and mama... </div><div>yea...</div><div>supa proud of myself!! HAHA!! :D</div><div>hope everything will go well tmr for presentation!!</div><div>though imma not presenting coz grp agreed that i should present coz i did the prezi thing..</div><div>sadded...</div><div>lols...</div><div>but good in a way coz i don think i got the time to memo script either!</div><div>HAHA! </div><div>but imma the clicker!! lols..</div><div>hope i wont press too fast lo... =p </div><div>good luck to my whole grp!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1077126009000801623?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-88992319793725316592011-07-11T23:33:00.002+08:002011-07-11T23:55:11.965+08:00sometimes things just happen right when u dont expect it to happen...<div>spoiling my mood as always...</div><div>but somehow all this crap is no gonna take me down in life..</div><div>at least not for now for the time being... :)</div><div><br /></div><div>its not like i purposely came home late and bath late today...</div><div>how would i know that u would even be late today?</div><div>as if i gt some kind of psychic power lidat! HA! </div><div>if so i think i prolly wont needa study and score a prefecrt GPA of 4 ald lo!</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>ridiculous people lo!</div><div>then come blame me..</div><div>assholes sia!</div><div><br /></div><div>was also asking mama abt internship for next year..</div><div>dono if i should go for local or overseas...</div><div>then somehow she said i ald going for OIP ald...</div><div>is ald 5 weeks...</div><div>then say wat will make her worry for 5 weeks... asked me not to let her do this kinda thing again so asked me to go for local instead...</div><div>for lo...</div><div>then after that she said wat i 5 weeks without her sure become anyhow one...</div><div>like wts la!!</div><div>say until machiam without her i will turn into some kinda monster or loss women lidat!</div><div>machiam i will go do illegal stuff or something!</div><div>shit ass la!</div><div>since this is how she thinks then fine lo!!</div><div>and sister had to piss me off with her ridiculous behaviour...</div><div><br /></div><div>FINE!! MY MIND'S SET!!</div><div>I SHALL GO FOR OVERSEAS INTERNSHIP IF I COULD!!!</div><div>HOPE I CAN GET A CHANCE FOR OVERSEAS INTERNSHIP! </div><div>sick of nonsense ald... </div><div>like seriously...</div><div>after OIP cmf all my savings will be used up de...</div><div>but i still have one more semester before year 3 internship...</div><div>so gonna chiong work during sem 2 to save up for an overseas internship if possible!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>don think overseas internship is a bad idea la...</div><div>besides getting away from home...</div><div>i can get to enjoy the pace of life in the another country!!</div><div>something that i have always wanted to experience!! :D</div><div>seems FUN!! </div><div>but thing is will i get homesick?</div><div>haha! </div><div>coz still i have lived in Singapore for so long...</div><div>the internship is one whole sem.. meaning almost 6 months...</div><div>hmmm...</div><div>shall find out this answer when i go for my OIP..</div><div>HAHA! </div><div>then shall decided again if i reali wanna overseas internship or not again ba.. =p </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8899231979372531659?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-46517365263417294962011-07-10T12:16:00.002+08:002011-07-10T12:20:49.129+08:00still a long way to go for my CEM work report...<div>wts!</div><div>and my brother is tempting me to play!</div><div>wat kind of brother is this lo...</div><div>instead of asking the sister to concentrate and finish up her work...</div><div>he is encouraging her to play with him...</div><div>lousy brother la!!</div><div>but i like!! lols... =p</div><div>if he is not acting like this then is not my bro ald lo! </div><div>XD</div><div>perhaps that just us... =p </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4651736526341729496?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-7306965650509223742011-07-10T12:09:00.003+08:002011-07-10T12:16:02.319+08:00ytd went to out with the usual clique again :D<div>boon, tkl, lam, kel, sc.. then cat also joined us... XD</div><div>lunch-ed le then went to return the astons uniform...</div><div>finally managed to get rid of the irritating uniform...</div><div>clear space ar...</div><div>which also means more room in the wardrobe for me to buy new clothes...</div><div>HAHA!</div><div>if mama sees this sure nag at me again... =p </div><div>but oso cant la...</div><div>coz i like broke ald lo...</div><div>needa save up to buy my stuff...</div><div>wanna buy a bag and a new lappy case la...</div><div>but dono whr to buy the lappy case...</div><div>sians much...</div><div><br /></div><div>then moive-d at cathay...</div><div>watch transformers...</div><div>like naise only lo!!</div><div>WAHAHAHA! :D</div><div>after that jiu train-ed home le...</div><div><br /></div><div>gonna watch HP7 on fri!! </div><div>looking forward much! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-730696565050922374?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-77088206863942321632011-07-01T10:19:00.002+08:002011-07-01T10:27:16.452+08:00lecture ended one hour ahead... like cool only right...<div>haha! but the sad thing is i caught nth of wat the lecturer was saying juz now...</div><div>like absolutely nothing at all la!!</div><div>she talk so fast like she machiam going to catch a flight lidat! lols... </div><div>i rather she talk slightly slower and end the class like 30 mins earlier than one hour la!</div><div>at least i could have learnt and understand abit more of this hopeless module... :(</div><div><br /></div><div>so now slacking at the moment with one hour to spare before tutorial starts at 11...</div><div>sian max...</div><div>think i should grab this chance for a short nap...</div><div>seriously tired till wanna die ald!</div><div>feel like doing work report or studying for LAM or BCOMM but no mood...</div><div>and don feel like doing when friends are around...</div><div>lols...</div><div>being me, i think i rather prefer doing these things at my own time without people knowing or looking or seeing me...</div><div>lols! </div><div>haha! :D</div><div>i think that i just me ba...</div><div>realised in the recent years that i would rather prefer doing things alone and without people knowing that i have even done something...</div><div>lols...</div><div><br /></div><div>absolutely talking crap right here now...</div><div>shall go random other places and grab a nap if possible ba! </div><div>HAHA! </div><div>till then~ :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7708820686394232163?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-45316683989272709922011-07-01T01:00:00.002+08:002011-07-01T01:10:24.697+08:00intro to social psychology classes starts todae...<div>was quite alright la...</div><div>managed to get to know one girl who was sitting beside me and chatted abit.. :)</div><div>the teacher look quite weird though....</div><div>as in his looks...</div><div>but seems to be a good enough teacher.. :)</div><div>he when through the class like super fast todae...</div><div>as a result the horrible 4 hour class was shorten into a 2 hour lesson! yipee!! :D</div><div>hopefully it will stay this way throughout the 6 weeks of this IS module...</div><div>but heard that there will be alot of report writing for this module that i have chosen...</div><div>hope it would be more fun and less of a chore ba...</div><div>esp when this was wat i chosen myself...</div><div>and is something that im actually interested in from the bottom of my heart... :)</div><div><br /></div><div>went to sam's office after sch for the in-house training...</div><div>gt so many things neeeda rmb lo!</div><div>wth! haha! :D</div><div>still haven read up all the brochures in the file that sam passed to me just now...</div><div>think shall read up tmr ba... =p </div><div>gonna be working for the 1st time as a promoter this weekend...</div><div>hope everything will be fine :)</div><div><br /></div><div>was thinking how am i going to actually study for my two test coming up soon...</div><div>1st would be the bcomm business message test...</div><div>hais....</div><div>think shall try to study tmr when i come home...</div><div>and study during the weekends on my way to work ba...</div><div>then also have to start studying for LAM ald la...</div><div>9 chapters sia!!</div><div>will die lo! :(</div><div><br /></div><div>shall go slp now...</div><div>super brain dead! =/</div><div><br /></div><div>tmr will be a better day! hopefully :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4531668398927270992?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-49139154995882356992011-06-30T11:52:00.000+08:002011-07-01T01:11:04.646+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://t0.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRkqfbHaRoLMEku1bP28LPXPTYLyQuOMlJJTW1z044D2XXSdMnv" /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">got back ACF CT results on wed le... </div><div style="text-align: left;">kinda disppointed...</div><div style="text-align: left;">scored 86 marks...</div><div style="text-align: left;">didnt managed to get an A*..</div><div style="text-align: left;">and it is the module that i was most confident and interested in...</div><div style="text-align: left;">hais...</div><div style="text-align: left;">looking at the results have totally demotivated me to study ald...</div><div style="text-align: left;">no use working so hard for nth...</div><div style="text-align: left;">everything is meaningless...</div><div style="text-align: left;">even the module that i was the most confident in oso didnt managed to perform as well as i have expected..</div><div style="text-align: left;">vivien and sangaree both scored over 90 marks...</div><div style="text-align: left;">even suyu who was not so good in it oso managed to scored quite close to my score... :(</div><div style="text-align: left;">totally saddened...</div><div style="text-align: left;">but PMKT i managed to scored 80...</div><div style="text-align: left;">so wasnt that bad after all...</div><div style="text-align: left;">but im still the lowest among the clique...</div><div style="text-align: left;">suyu managed to score the highest out of the four of us...</div><div style="text-align: left;">i know i shouldnt be envying over others de results when i didnt put in as much effort as them...</div><div style="text-align: left;">so ya~~ my bad...</div><div style="text-align: left;">shall try to work harder now and hopefully score better in the final exams ba... </div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">i have no rights to be jealous of anything... </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4913915499588235699?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-49990910099470202012011-06-27T23:48:00.002+08:002011-06-27T23:57:20.262+08:00wah!! 1st time stomach feel so uneasy lo!!<div>hate it max la!!</div><div>being women is so damn mafan!! </div><div>coz of this oso have to cancel plans with my fav zabor to go jog...</div><div>no way u could ask me to jog when imma in this state with my stomach cramping and being so uneasy and all the shitty stuff going on...</div><div>which also means one session of gossiping time gone with her ald la!!</div><div>sadded much!</div><div>lols.. =p </div><div><br /></div><div>felt so much better after gulping down the hot and pipping milo that i made myself for myself...</div><div>despite this seriously hot and humid weather nowadays... </div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>almost scalded my tongue lo..</div><div>hehes.. =p</div><div>but the warmth in my stomach is so smoothing and relaxing...</div><div>don mind sweating just to drink it and make myself feel better :)</div><div>have been suffering the whole day in sch ald lo...</div><div>so thought that the uneasiness of my stomach was due to the milk that i drank in the morning for breakfast until vivien reminded me of the possibility of the other outcome...</div><div>which turns out to be the truth..</div><div>lols..</div><div>think shall turn in to my bed and slp now...</div><div>before this nice and comfortable feeling wears off and i have to start rolling in my bed again...</div><div>then cmf cant slp le...</div><div>then DIE!!! haha! :D</div><div>nights nights!!</div><div>hope there would be sweet dreams tonight...</div><div>haven been dreaming when slping for quite some time ald... =p </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4999091009947020201?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-30248743052305298752011-06-26T14:08:00.002+08:002011-06-26T14:12:17.804+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://t1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQhJWrMm0_dm2g-Ndx2bLRcv_OGdlZ3nAD68o1dLmDEtt7qbCEL" /></div><div style="text-align: left;">rotting at home... </div><div style="text-align: left;">boring max...</div><div style="text-align: left;">no feel to do hw... </div><div style="text-align: left;">wasting my life away at the moment...</div><div style="text-align: left;">feel like going to slp again...</div><div style="text-align: left;">waiting for mama to come home with my lunch...</div><div style="text-align: left;">waiting for my mcspicy meal...</div><div style="text-align: left;">mummy, where are you? and my lunch?</div><div style="text-align: left;">lols...</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">ok... seriously imma extremely kinda bored...</div><div style="text-align: left;">talking crap...</div><div style="text-align: left;">shall stop this nonsensical post...</div><div style="text-align: left;">just waste yet another 3 mins of my life...</div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' 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/></div><div><br /></div><div>stupid brain...</div><div>for being so hyper active today...</div><div>want to do my stuff then so dead... </div><div>cant even think for the answers for my tutorial... </div><div>when doing nth can think of so many stupid and retarded things...</div><div>lols...</div><div>although not are bad la...</div><div>but some are still unhealthy for me though... :(</div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://t2.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcQpTUMhxYAcS2Yw9EC2fCtaFg1uOfoaymgdJwyzQBv0JEpESBDc1g" /></div><div>shall go slp le ba...</div><div>gonna 'force' my brain to 'take a rest' now...</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>things will be better when i wake up :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1766885883547578779?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-5474523389080500372011-06-24T00:24:00.002+08:002011-06-24T00:39:36.586+08:00it's almost 12.30am now and im still awake...<div>like wth..</div><div>i think i screw up my body clock like again... </div><div>no surprise since it's this is like always happening..</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>but i think imma gonna be screwed when sch reopens next week... </div><div>cmf cant wake up and will be dozing off in lectures de lo!!</div><div>wahahaha! XD</div><div>shall try to slp early tmr le...</div><div>needa get my body clock back in order before sch starts again.. :)</div><div><br /></div><div>sian.. tmr or rather later have project meeting again... :(</div><div>cmf will be like half asleep later on de lo..</div><div>project are so SUPER BORING! </div><div><br /></div><div>wasted one whole day again... </div><div>i know right! lols..</div><div>and i still gt so many things haven do la! </div><div>only managed to finish up my ACF tutorials...</div><div>still left with my PMKT tutorial, PMKT project research with i totally have no idea wat to do..</div><div>and still gt my work report and LAM tutorial which the lecture is like taking forever to upload it to mel...</div><div>shit him ttm man! everytime oso last min upload de... </div><div>not that i will do way beforehand la...</div><div>but at least i will look through mah... =p </div><div>wah!! the mountain is piling up and imma still slacking here...</div><div>seriously deserve to be shot! HAHA! :D</div><div>OH!! totally forgot i still have a LAM common test in like 2 weeks time!</div><div>and i haven study! =.=</div><div>die!~ </div><div>shall try to finish all the tutorials and research by tmr night ba.. </div><div>then shall spend the weekends doing my work report and study at the same time..</div><div>like HOPEFULLY~~ </div><div>i seriously never once get things done de lo..</div><div>even after i have planned everything..</div><div>everytime without fail will drag everything to the last min...</div><div>should seriously consider getting rid of this awful habit of mine sia!</div><div>otherwise cmf will die when exam comes... not that my results are exactly fantastic at the moment...</div><div>don even wanna think of it ar~~ </div><div><br /></div><div>shall go and drink some milk 1st then wash up and slp le!! haha! </div><div>LOLS!! :p</div><div>nights earth and earthlings! </div><div>and hello my LALA LAND!! and my dreams!! :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-547452338908050037?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-70371771080669873382011-06-21T01:09:00.003+08:002011-06-21T01:40:29.873+08:00super hate home la! <div>lols...</div><div>irritating annoying and nuisance peeps that never fails to spoil my mood and throw me into my worse of the worse moods...</div><div>whether i'm happy or ald grumpy from my day...</div><div>mood spoiler la this people!</div><div>SUCKS LA! </div><div><br /></div><div>crazy people that keep stopping me for doing things without reason...</div><div>want go jogging at night oso cant...</div><div>only know how to give ridiculous reason like later ppl catch me or something...</div><div>like HALO LA!!</div><div>it's only like freaking 8pm only!!</div><div>and is not like i'm going alone... ok la.. sometimes alone when i wanna go for extra days of jogging... </div><div>but still~~</div><div>ald told u is ard the neighbourhood wat...</div><div>ass sia! </div><div>if i don go in the night time then when u expect me to go.. in the morning or the afternoon meh?!</div><div>as if i don have sch lidat...</div><div>use ur brain la! </div><div><br /></div><div>and stupid retard ass!</div><div>juz coz accidentally kick until ur bag then gimme stupid noise!</div><div>ASSHOLE la! </div><div>as if ur bag make of gold lidat!</div><div>one more time i will cut the damn bag!</div><div>shit u!</div><div>it's not even worth my time and energy to scold/ ask u go die...</div><div>come to think of it.. </div><div>if u reali go die then i still have to face the reprimand of the mass people and take the blame..</div><div>and to tell the truth... U ARE NOT EVEN WORTH IT FOR ME TO DO ALL THIS...</div><div>i rather die myself this instance...</div><div>wont have to see anything.. feel anything.. hear anything...</div><div>i wont give a damn if u were to cry at my funeral if this day were to arrive..</div><div>seriously it wont even bother me if u never cry..</div><div>I DON CARE.. at least not anymore...</div><div><br /></div><div>I DON GIVE A DAMN ABT THIS HOME ANYMORE...</div><div>i just cant be bothered..</div><div>keep on saying i getting rebellious and being more and more disrespectful to people right?</div><div>just wait until i turn 18..</div><div>when i am a semi adult and can do most things and decision on my own... </div><div>i 'll show u wat is the real rebellious and disrespectful if u want...</div><div>continue treating me this way and testing my limits...</div><div>you wont even know where i go next time...</div><div>don expect me to be so good to tell u where i'm going way beforehand and pick up ur calls when u wanna spot-check on me... </div><div>continue with everything la..</div><div>next time i wont even tell u whr i'm heading nor pick up ur calls if u wanna...</div><div>just try me... </div><div><br /></div><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://gloriaslee.files.wordpress.com/2011/06/regrets.jpg" /></div><div style="text-align: left;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">i know imma gonna regret all of this that i have done and said in some point of my life next time when i grow older or something...</div><div style="text-align: left;">but i shall leave it to then to be remorseful and regret my actions and speech...</div><div style="text-align: left;">till then... imma not gonna care abt anything...</div><div style="text-align: left;">just gonna do wat i feel like and wat i wanna... for now... </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7037177108066987338?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-64035087807826744332011-06-21T01:02:00.004+08:002011-06-21T01:09:18.658+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://t1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcRnqKCesuKDkM01eK4XX57dIkzRgO66wVwL8wyuHlczbF3iSemJ" /></div><div><br /></div><div>nobody hears me talk anymore...</div><div>nobody hears my sorrow...</div><div>nobody knows my pain..</div><div>nobody see my sufferings...</div><div>well~~</div><div>not anymore.. </div><div><br /></div><div>when i'm silence, i'm actually thinking...</div><div>dozens and dozens of things are running through my mind..</div><div>but nobody sees them... </div><div><br /></div><div>when i'm silence, i'm actually screaming...</div><div>thousands and thousands of cries for help as loud as i can get...</div><div>but ironically, nobody hears them...</div><div><br /></div><div>in a world of millions and millions of people..</div><div>it feels like i'm all alone...</div><div><br /></div><div>perhaps....</div><div>it's just me...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6403508780782674433?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-37875175572296762072011-06-19T22:23:00.002+08:002011-06-19T22:36:59.243+08:00weird dream again...<div>and yes, i dreamt of you again last night.. or should i say this morning.. but i guess it works either way.. lol.. </div><div>haven been dreaming of him for almost one week ald..</div><div>prolly coz of all the sucky projects that made me so tired to even dream..</div><div>or is it me thinking too much lately or the recent drama i have just finish watching that brought back the dream... </div><div>idk... </div><div>this time i dreamt of u holding my hands and it felt so real..</div><div>i could almost feel the warmness of your hand...</div><div>the softness of your skin...</div><div>it totally knocked of my breathe and made my heart skipped a beat...</div><div>but i also know it is a dream la..</div><div>stupid me for even believing that it was real in the first place...</div><div>nth would even happen between us in the first place de lo... </div><div>dumb brain of mine... </div><div><br /></div><div>shall not think so much le la...</div><div>like wat i told vivien and suyu.. imma gonna be a nun le la!</div><div>not gonna think abt such things anymore..</div><div>not gonna like or crush on anybody le...</div><div>just gonna enjoy life as a single... hopefully... keeping my fingers crossed!! :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3787517557229676207?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-32439199803688335782011-06-19T22:03:00.002+08:002011-06-19T22:23:38.499+08:00it's fathers' day today... <div>somehow don feel like facebooking much today...</div><div>coz all i can see are friends' posting on news feed wishing their dad happy fathers' day...<br />it's been almost 10 years since i last celebrated fathers' day...</div><div>idk why it's hitting me so hard this year..</div><div>sense of jealousy... </div><div>reali envy those friends that can have a proper family can celebrate the occasion today... :(</div><div><br /></div><div>hate my dad for the things that he had done to land this family in this state...</div><div>to force me to grow up in such a environment/ family..</div><div>to make me have to envy my friends.. something that i absolutely hate to do... to have to envy people for having the things that i could not and could never have... :(</div><div>but somehow i miss having a dad sometimes... which means missing him... </div><div>not that i wanna... </div><div>idk if i'm able to forgive him for wat he did... for the hurt he has brought to me and my childhood...</div><div>to make me have to little "phobia"... </div><div>but i just want a dad at times to be able to talk to... :(</div><div>a dad to care for me... </div><div>and a dad that would walk me down the aisle when i get married someday in the future...</div><div>maybe i'm thinking too much..</div><div>but still... :(</div><div>it's always the dad the will walk their daughter down the aisle...</div><div>u dont see mothers walking their daughter down the aisle when they marry do you? i guess not... :(</div><div> </div><div>i'm just thinking too much... </div><div><br /></div><div>all i wanna is a proper complete family.. :(</div><div>i know this is so god damned impossible... :(</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3243919980368833578?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-79050550915552720102011-06-19T21:57:00.003+08:002011-06-19T22:03:50.778+08:00one week of holiday have passed.. :(<div>which means i only left with one more week of holiday nia...</div><div>damn sian la!!</div><div>haven enjoy my holiday yet lo...</div><div>have been going back to sch for most of the week for projects and projects and more projects!!</div><div>WTH luh!!</div><div>HATE THIS KIND OF LIFE MAN!!</div><div>TOTALLY LIFE-LESS LA!! </div><div>SUCKS TTMTTC!! :(</div><div>but what can i do?</div><div>this is wat i should be doing now...</div><div>shall face up to reality and get the things done..</div><div>be glad that it is a group project and not an individual project..</div><div>otherwise sure die.. judging from the amount of things that need to be done and things to be researched on...</div><div>HA! </div><div>and i still haven do any of my tutorials lo...</div><div>i think i'm just too lazy le la!</div><div>slack so much!!</div><div>shall try to finish them on wed ba... coz no need to go sch do those damn project!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>hopefully will get things done ba...</div><div>then can relax on thurs... :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7905055091555272010?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-80430659702563776282011-06-11T21:47:00.002+08:002011-06-11T22:06:49.023+08:00got home from IT fair le!!<div>bought my printer like finally! HA! </div><div>have been dragging for so long le lo...</div><div>happy much! :D</div><div>lols.. =p </div><div>went to buy it myself; alone.. </div><div>kinda good and bad though...</div><div>good coz i can see slowly the options available for me w/o anybody breathing down my neck to hurry up...</div><div>bad coz i have to carry the thing home myself..</div><div>they gt provide trolley for the printer la...</div><div>so was kinda ok...</div><div>but was difficult boarding and alighting the bus la!</div><div>haha! and climbing the stairs was oso hard lo! </div><div>like heavy only sia the printer! but i managed to do it!!! :D</div><div>LOLOLOL!!! XD</div><div>too lazy to unpack the printer now..</div><div>shall do it tmr instead.. =p</div><div>helped jin hui bought her ipod shuffle just now oso... haha! :D</div><div>a huge depletion in my bank acc ald luh..</div><div>sians... :(</div><div>broke ald... shall start saving up ald luh!! haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>managed to see the two plastic girls; Cherry and Hui Huan just now oso!!</div><div>talk for a super long time lo!! hehes... miss them lots lots!</div><div>esp the time when we were working tgt at the IT fair in March lo!! damn fun!! hehes... =p</div><div>then they oso pei me walk walk and go check the price of the ipod for my friend...</div><div>thanks girls!! love ya much much!! haha! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8043065970256377628?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-16519499202916560922011-06-10T22:07:00.002+08:002011-06-10T22:14:10.112+08:00finally the end of CT ald!! <div>can take a lil break from studying :)</div><div>have been doing last min mugging as usual for the CT...</div><div>haha!</div><div>totally dont like this slackish attitude of mine lo..</div><div>always studying and cramping all the things last min the night before the paper...</div><div>but wat to do? this is just me! :)</div><div>HAHA! :D</div><div>hope i can do well for both the ACF and PMKT paper...</div><div>ACF is my most confident module ald lo..</div><div>if i dont do well this time for the CT, i think i can go bang wall ald lo... :(</div><div>as for PMKT, hope can do well ba...</div><div>but dono if all the things i crap for the question will be relevant anot...</div><div>haha!</div><div>think i went abit out of point oso lo..</div><div>but like nth to write le..</div><div>so anyhow crap and link here link there...</div><div>wahahaha!! :D</div><div>but sad that no definitions questions came out lo!</div><div>like spend so much time last night trying to memorize all the definitions of the different terms... </div><div>haha! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>i wanna pull up my GPA real bad :(<br /></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1651949920291656092?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-29341466062157167282011-06-06T17:17:00.003+08:002011-06-06T17:21:35.414+08:00i think i damn failure la!!<div>haha! </div><div>have been slacking whole day at home today!! </div><div>study less then an hour jiu go slp...</div><div>like wth lo!</div><div>=p</div><div>end up i have been slping the whole dae</div><div>cant seem to concentrate at home and in the day time lo...</div><div>think i can only study at night lo..</div><div>RAWR!! </div><div>HAHA!! :D</div><div>shall try to study later after dinner ba...</div><div>slp so much ald still so tired..</div><div>think gt something wrong with me lo!</div><div>shall try to finish reading at least two chapters of the PMKT de tb later!! </div><div>PMKT U ARE DEAD LATER!!</div><div>WAHAHAHAHA!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div>lols.. =.=! </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-2934146606215716728?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-47733187496891937712011-06-06T17:07:00.002+08:002011-06-06T17:14:59.538+08:00had a great evening on sat at the guitar excos reunion at Mr Hendri's house!!!<div>it was simply AWESOME meeting all the friends and Mr Hendri which i haven been contacting and seeing much!</div><div>played guitar heroes after dinner...</div><div>basically is they play la...</div><div>haven touch my guitar since my POP in sec 4...</div><div>so didnt reali wanna play..</div><div>but entertained myself by watching them!</div><div>haha! </div><div>lols... =p </div><div><br /></div><div>leave before the rest at ard 9.30pm coz meeting vivien and suyu to study...</div><div>was tonning over at west mall de mac to study until dawn...</div><div>was quite a productive midnight studying for me... </div><div>HAHA!!</div><div>time also seems to pass by faster at night...</div><div>can also concentrate more at night lo...</div><div>dono why.. HAHA!</div><div>reach home ytd morning ard 8am... =p </div><div>bathed and slp immediately..</div><div>haha! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4773318749689193771?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-63226449666668926412011-06-04T13:12:00.002+08:002011-06-04T15:05:18.576+08:00went out after sch ytd with jing ting, tkl and zw...<div>was suppose to be a gathering to meet muthu coz he going aussie soon le..</div><div>but sadly sch ended late...</div><div>so by the time i gt thr he had to leave ald... :(</div><div><br /></div><div>then waited for zw to reach while we went to buy tix for movie x-men 1st class...</div><div>awesome show!! haha! love it max!! XD<br /></div><div>dinner-ed at just acia after buying tix..</div><div>then went plaza sing de arcarde...</div><div>wanted to play actually de...</div><div>but in the end went to take neoprints...</div><div>haha! </div><div>then camwhored with my phone inside the neoprint booths!!</div><div>haha! :D</div><div>like fun only lo!!</div><div>nobody thr someone... </div><div>machiam we own the place lidat..</div><div>was laughing so hard while camwhoring...</div><div>haven had such a good laugh for a long time ald! </div><div>camwhore had to stop cause movie starting ald...</div><div><br /></div><div>train-ed home after movie...</div><div>then thr was this person that was drunk in the same cabin with me, zw and tkl...</div><div>then suddenly he puked sia!!</div><div>gross max only!</div><div>then me and zw offered them some tissues... </div><div>haha! we are good kids!! </div><div>LOLS!! =p</div><div>they alighted at the next stop but the cabin reeked of the red wine he drank la!!</div><div>haha! </div><div>eww~~ :/</div><div><br /></div><div>but still... </div><div>THANKS GUYS FOR THE WONDERFUL NIGHT YTD!! </div><div>U ALL ROCKS!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6322644966666892641?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-2421630638212628032011-06-04T13:07:00.002+08:002011-06-04T13:12:47.140+08:00felt so much better after my previous post..<div>prolly coz i have finally spoken out what have been bugging me for years ald.. :)</div><div>was able to act normal at home nowadays and talk abit more rather than being like an autistic child... =p </div><div>have been trying to forget you but....</div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>yea.. anybody could have guessed it... </div><div>i failed.. yet again... </div><div>just two days ago i dreamt abt u... and that is so not helping me...</div><div>for the rest of that day i can only keep thinking abt u... :(</div><div>me and my retard brain...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-242163063821262803?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-83968365281456433652011-05-30T00:05:00.002+08:002011-05-30T01:02:45.382+08:00mama had asked my a few times over that past days wat i wrong with me or rather wat is bothering me...<div>sadly enough for her my answer were no more than just a 'nth'</div><div>i couldn't helped it...</div><div>there is no use telling her wat is exactly wrong</div><div>she could never sympathize nor understand my problems or feelings</div><div>so instead of telling her and giving her the chance to nag me which will do if she were to know that part of my problem is abt r/s, i would rather just shut up...</div><div>another part of the problem would prolly be coz of her and the family... but why would i want to tell her abt this when i know that bringing up the topic would only lead to me and her quarrelling? </div><div>i'm seriously not that dumb nor stupid nor retard.. </div><div><br /></div><div>i reali dono why this feeling towards home is building up again..</div><div>it's exactly how i felt when i was in sec 3/4..</div><div>maybe much more worse..</div><div>prolly is coz that i was ald fretting over my personal stuff and they have to come and irritated me...</div><div>reali hate it la! :(</div><div><br /></div><div>i could see the hurt in mama's eyes these few days...</div><div>but somehow i feel that there's is nth i could do nor want to do...</div><div>if she could be hurt just by me acting/ behaving like this</div><div>then wat abt me? </div><div>have she ever thought of how i had felt in the past with the way she had treated me and also treating me now? </div><div>reali sick of everything ald...</div><div>it's not like i have never been hurt by her lidat</div><div>think she oso dono how many times in the past she had hurt me ald</div><div><br /></div><div>she has never shown her support for me when i reali needed it</div><div>all she does is to harp on the things i did wrong instead of accepting the fact that wat is done cant be undone and encourage me to move on..</div><div><br /></div><div>she has never shown her support for me in my sch stuff and still expect me to do well in sch</div><div>during pri 6 graduation day, she never attended the ceremony with the excuse that she needed to work despite knowing that i was receiving an award.. </div><div>i know, that award is not reali great or smth.. not like i received the top in the cohort or wat..</div><div>but still it was the best improvement award which shows that i have actually been trying to work hard to perform well in sch.. she never came.. it was ah yi that came and applauded for me while i went up the stage to receive the prize... i know it's good for her to ask ah yi to attend in replace of her but still who wont want their own parents to be there personally to see their child receiving a award? :(</div><div><br /></div><div>sec 2 was the SYF year and i had the chance to participate in the competition. it was my first time to be actually joining in a competition.. most of my friends parents specially took off to go and watch them perform and to boost their confidence.. but when i asked mama, again same thing, she said she had to work and i still could rmb wat she said when i was persuading her to attend saying that it was my 1st time and how other ppl's parents were taking off: "it's their business mah, but i need to work... it's also not like confirm will get gold lidat.." ... i was reali saddened by it lo... my 1st competition in my world life and this is the way that she is showing me her support.. </div><div><br /></div><div>sec1/2 we had home econs.. 1st half of the year each year will have cooking.. but she never once tasted that food that i bought home from the class.. its was always didi that finished up all the food.. for that i'm reali grateful to him.. he is the only person that wpould eat the food every week when i bring home.. perhaps sec 1 i could understand why mama wont eat coz the theme of that year was indian culture for the sch... for that i dont mind u know coz i understand her preference for indian cuisine.. but sec 2 was nyonya.. how can she not want to eat? i mean among chinese cuisines there is also nyonya food right? so what's her reason for not wanting to eat? i can even rmb there's one day where da ge came over and i happen to have home econs lesson and when i offered him the food, he just took it and ate it without saying anything... then wat abt my own mum? i'm so seriously disappointed and hurt by her actions which she thought nth of... :(</div><div><br /></div><div>seriously is work reali that impt? i can understand it when u say if u never work then no money.. coz u are the only breadwinner of the family.. but surely u can take a day off once in a while to attend smth that i would reali hope u will be there, that i think is impt to me, that i would want u to be present to support me? is it reali that hard? :( i know it's tough for u to be taking on the family with two kids that are disobedient.. but all i want is some support from u in the things i am doing.. i have never reali blamed u for making me live in a broken family... i admit at 1st when the things happened i did... for awhile.. but not anymore now... it's not reali ur fault that things happened and turned out this way.. we all couldn't have helped it.. so cant u even understand my need for parent support esp when i'm growing up in such an environment? all i asked for is for u to support me in the things that i do.. not to discourage me nor deter me in smth that i have made up my mind on..</div><div>i admit i miss having a dad around me sometimes.. i couldn't have helped it seeing friends all happily going out with their dad sometimes or being able to talk to their dad abt their problems.. not that i cant talk to u.. but u being a single parent, ur perspective of the world is different in some ways and is over protective and bias over some issues.. so how am i suppose to talk to u to seek advice from u instead of getting a lecture from u? :(</div><div><br /></div><div>it's not that i bear a grudge against you or something..</div><div>it's just that these are the things u have done that had reali hurt me in the past.. the scars are ald there.. so how not to remember these things? </div><div>they may be insignificant to u and u may have ald forgotten abt them.. but my scars are there...</div><div>i couldn't help but be reminded of them at times when the emptiness wash over me... :(</div><div><br /></div><div>if only the scars will heal..</div><div>if only the memories will fade..</div><div>if only the feelings will go..</div><div>i might have been less troubled.. :/</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8396836528145643365?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-63378837237839076072011-05-29T23:36:00.002+08:002011-05-30T00:05:51.805+08:00this week is supposed to be elearning week..<div>but the sad part is that i have actually been going back to sch for most of the days for project meetings..</div><div>damn sian de lo!!</div><div>mon to wed go back for project meeting..</div><div>only thurs stayed at home..</div><div>then fri gt ACF presentation..</div><div>sat rot at home again.. lols..</div><div>then todae still have to go back sch for project meeting!</div><div>wth! </div><div>who else goes back to sch on a sunday to do project...</div><div>i think only my grp lo..</div><div>HAHA! =p </div><div><br /></div><div>common test is coming and i am so not studying lo!!</div><div>i seriously should just go bang wall die! haha! =p</div><div>i should start studying ald lo..</div><div>its's less than a week away...</div><div>i reali wanna get a good GPA sia!</div><div>i wanna pull up my damn ridiculously low GPA la!!</div><div><br /></div><div>have been sleeping alot more than usual these days..</div><div>have no idea why..</div><div>perhaps is my way of trying to escape from the world...</div><div>to protect myself from the hurt that i have been getting lately...</div><div>a way of escaping from the pain and sufferings that i have been going through lately...</div><div>in both family and relationships...</div><div>even if it is just momentarily... just the few hours that i am unconscious...</div><div>but still.. it is a break-free from those pain</div><div>to be able to forget everything</div><div>to not be able to think or remember anything at all</div><div>it's a moment of freedom in a sense for me</div><div><br /></div><div>have also been acting like an autistic child at home these days...</div><div>seriously dono why i dont feel like talking anymore at home now...</div><div>only opening my mouth to answer question when been asked with one..</div><div>or to just say something that is needed</div><div>and nth more... :/</div><div><br /></div><div>just gonna shut myself out from the world as best as i could</div><div>maybe this is the only way i can protect myself now..</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6337883723783907607?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-9902235290083326542011-05-22T14:25:00.001+08:002011-05-26T14:34:26.723+08:00last day of work todae!<div>like finally...</div><div>rotting for the whole day todae..</div><div>idk why everybody is treating me this way todae...</div><div>but i have figured that i don care anymore...</div><div>it doesnt matter anymore...</div><div>the few person that reali matter to me oso doesnt matter anymore..</div><div>mama doesnt understand me and the guy i like oso don even know i exist basically.. or rather didnt even have the eyes for me...</div><div>so why should i care how others are treating me anymore...</div><div>so i busied myself todae while the rest are out working/ having fun by studying for pmkt...</div><div><br /></div><div>preparing for slp as im lying on my bed and blogging from my phone...</div><div>super tired todae from ytd late night...</div><div><br /></div><div>went to admiralty de mac to do hw...</div><div>stayed until 1.30am then left...</div><div>walked home..</div><div>didnt realised that it was such a long walk home lo..</div><div>hehes...</div><div>but i didnt mind coz the air was super fresh in the dawn...</div><div>so was actually enjoying myself from the walk home... :D</div><div><br /></div><div>i think is time for me to grab some slp ald..</div><div>tmr still have project meeting</div><div>dead tired...</div><div>physically and mentally as well as emotionally...</div><div>gotta escape from this world!</div><div>even if it is just a few hours that i can get from my slp.. :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-990223529008332654?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-77908121143527083412011-05-20T13:25:00.000+08:002011-05-26T13:57:25.919+08:00wat a emo day..<div>hiash.. :(</div><div>morning didnt reali started out right...</div><div>partly due to all the stupid things i thought abt ytd that made me lidat i suppose...</div><div>and also previous night that small boy in the hse was watching dvd in the middle of the night ard 12 after he finished playing computer...</div><div>not that it is my business...</div><div>shouldnt even have bothered with him in the 1st place lo..</div><div>then can save myself from all the anger...</div><div>but the thing is he gt MYE tmr...</div><div>asked him to go slp early..</div><div>then he told me is the last episode ald..</div><div>so told him to watch tmr after he came back from sch...</div><div>it not like the ending of the show will change after one night or the dvd will disappear what! </div><div>and the thing is he watch before ald lo!</div><div>then he said something...</div><div>but coz i was in the kitchen...</div><div>so didnt reali heard clearly what he said in the beginning..</div><div>only heard that last part coz i was walking towards that living room..</div><div>and this is what i heard: “讲够了没有, 够了就 diam"</div><div><br /></div><div>it is fine with me if u wanna treat me lidat..</div><div>not like i care... </div><div><br /></div><div>so wasnt talking as much as usual during PMKT lecture..</div><div>partly was due to suyu and vien talking abt their outing tonight which i wasnt joining..</div><div><br /></div><div>after PMKT then was sitting at the water feature there waiting for LAM tutorial classroom to be open...</div><div>suyu came and sat beside me..</div><div>then she suddenly ask me "so how's u and **"</div><div>wah! i can tell u.. i was totally shocked and unprepared for that qn la!</div><div>and i could feel like there a hundred like stings stinging my heart at the same time.. pain!! :(</div><div>those stupid things that i have tought of the previous night hit me again like a hard rock..</div><div>hiash... :(</div><div>became more emo than before.. not that i want it but i could have helped it...</div><div><br /></div><div>after sch when home..</div><div>so wasnt reali in the superb mood for any talking..</div><div>just wanna go somewhere and rot..</div><div>then mama have to 'complain' to me abt the door and everything..</div><div>machiam im some kind of contractor that could help her fix lidat...</div><div>like HELLO? IM JUS A 17 YEAR OLD.. WHAT U SERIOUSLY WANT ME TO DO?</div><div>then told her to get the contractor and tell them to fix in my dead voice...</div><div>i just wanna get through her asap and go rot somewhere in the hse...</div><div>then she gave me this lecture abt how im showing her black face nowadays just coz "i thought i have grown up and cant be bothered with her"</div><div>like wts la! </div><div>cant she read my face and actions that i'm not in the mood?!</div><div>that i want to go rot somewhere and to be just left alone to think...</div><div><br /></div><div>after that, she still went into this "treat ur mum lidat and next time u will have retribution when u get old and have ur own children"...</div><div>reali cant be bothered with her la!</div><div>if she wants retribution to befall on me then so be it la! </div><div>not like i care lo...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7790812114352708341?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-83682306095288399072011-05-19T13:00:00.001+08:002011-05-26T13:20:24.315+08:00it's now actually 26/05...<div>but this post is actually for last week de</div><div>just that i didn't had the time to post..</div><div>hence changed the date abit...</div><div>lols..</div><div><br /></div><div>it's just impossible for me to reali fall for u despite the short time since i have known u..</div><div>but somehow i did..</div><div>i only managed to know you for a week</div><div>perhaps it was during the period that we kept sms-ing that i fell through that defense of mine for u..</div><div>i didn't knew it then..</div><div>not when we were sms-ing so much each day..</div><div>but somehow when the messages stopped coming in suddenly did i realised how much i have fell for u..</div><div>at first i have thought that it is coz i have just gotten so used to texting u and receiving u texts each day... </div><div>but when i just couldn't seem to get over the fact that u are not talking to me anymore did i realise it..</div><div>:(</div><div><br /></div><div>when we had the appsno gathering on tue..</div><div>when u didn't reall talked to me...</div><div>i reali felt bad..</div><div>idk y...</div><div>perhaps it's reali that sign to tell myself that i had ald fallen for u... and hard.. </div><div><br /></div><div>but i know that we are totally from two different worlds and there is no way for us to be tgt..</div><div>i just have to accept this fact and try to move on...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8368230609528839907?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-85086521377226759702011-05-17T23:57:00.003+08:002011-05-18T00:17:19.046+08:00was damn busy todae de la! haha! <div>morning went out with dan, tkl, zw, sc, cat, lam and kel...</div><div>wanted to watch movie de lo...</div><div>but sadly cwp remove all the morning slots for the movies..</div><div>then end up nth to do..</div><div>lunch-ed LJS.. then walked one round in uniqlo.. </div><div>so tempted to buy clothes la! :(</div><div>train-ed to AMK for pool...</div><div>played for one hour then left le...</div><div><br /></div><div>me train-ed to stadium to meet those appsno peeps at kallang leisure park... </div><div>was actually supposed to meet them at 2pm de...</div><div>but was damn late lo..</div><div>reached there ard 3.40... haha! =p</div><div>then somemore got abit lost and couldn't find the place! </div><div>haha! </div><div>but thankfully guo wei papa came and fetch me.. :D</div><div>then met up with them and went ice skating...</div><div>noobie me didnt know how to skate lo... then papa taught me!</div><div>haha! was quite ok la...</div><div>managed to be able to skate slowly/ walk on my own after an hour! haha! :D</div><div>so proud of myself!! </div><div>now i feel like going to skate again la! </div><div>fell down only once lo... on the side... then my shorts damn wet la! haha! </div><div><br /></div><div>after that slack and talk talk awhile..</div><div>dinner-ed at BK..</div><div>bowling after dinner then train-ed home... =p </div><div><br /></div><div>reali enjoyed myself todae with my bestie friends in the morning and those wonderful appsno peeps in the evening!! </div><div>damn happy oso coz i know how to ice skate abit ald!! wahahaha!! :D </div><div>LOLS!! XD</div><div>looking forward to the next outing/ gathering that papa is gonna organise! </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-8508652137722675970?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-43994077078738374772011-05-12T23:51:00.004+08:002011-05-26T13:24:21.324+08:00somehow idk y i feel so empty todae..<div>without my phone ringing...</div><div>is it coz i have gotten so used to messaging u everyday?</div><div>even if it is jus less than 10 msg i can get so happy and hyper...</div><div>i think this is prolly the sign that my mind and body is using to tell me that i have fallen for u... hard... </div><div><br /></div><div>i just hope that everything will be back and that u would start to text me again soon..</div><div><br /></div><div>it just seems like an impossible wish right now..</div><div>just like asking for the star in the dark gloomy sky... </div><div>TOTALLY IMPOSSIBLE.. it couldnt happen... :(</div><div><br /></div><div>but a girl can hope and dream i suppose? </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4399407707873837477?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-43388889690802218442011-05-02T22:07:00.002+08:002011-05-02T22:18:36.978+08:00thanks to jonathan i got a job again..<div>lols... =p</div><div>thinking abt quitting astons....</div><div>since i gt a job now although is only for a short period of time coz jon say the project only last a month...</div><div>but i think i will still quit astons ba..</div><div>coz oso not reali good to work there lo...</div><div>manager like shit only... </div><div>need u then say until everything so naise...</div><div>no need u then then treat u like u machiam air lidat... </div><div>lols... </div><div>so went to work on sat...</div><div>damn relax la the job!</div><div>haha!</div><div>only juz have to sit there and wait for people to come and help them to like the HTC singapore fan page...</div><div>somemore can work with three good looking guys lo!!!</div><div>wahahaha!! :D</div><div>lols...</div><div>but sadly they not reali my type...</div><div>but still gt eye candies during work is good eh!! =p</div><div>den only have to help the guys take photo with other people that we see... </div><div><br />tmr have to study again... </div><div>like sian only luh... huhu... :(</div><div>i want more holidays!! =p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4338888969080221844?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-8307962991876006452011-04-26T08:48:00.002+08:002011-04-26T09:05:45.968+08:00its the second week of sch ald and i feel so sian le... <div>lols.. =p</div><div>but i shall work harder to pull up my dearest GPA.</div><div>haha!</div><div>shall make it my goal to love all the modules that im studying and pay attention in lectures and tutorials... :D</div><div><br /></div><div>last wed went to take our pay with suyu after sch...</div><div>went to expo 1st for the IT fair that we work then to bukit merah for the event job de..</div><div>then me jiu go meet up with joe and his younger bro and guo wei who was ald there...</div><div>suyu jiu went off to meet up with her friends.. sian lo...</div><div>haha!</div><div>then waited awhile for luo han and alan to reach and take their pay jiu went to eat dinner le...</div><div>haha!<br /></div><div>was talking nonsense throughout lo!</div><div>so fun!! lols... =p</div><div>then jiu went home le...</div><div>haha! </div><div><br /></div><div>ytd after sch went out with alan and joe...</div><div>actually was only with alan de lo..</div><div>thought will feel weird lo...</div><div>but joe skipped class and came along too..</div><div>haha!</div><div>so was better... =p</div><div>then went shopping with them and helped joe buy some things coz is some girly stuff to him...</div><div>haha!</div><div>then carried that bag of things for him too coz he don dare take it and walk ard town! :D</div><div>played pool for awhile then head down to grab some bites jiu trained home le... =p </div><div><br /></div><div>i tmr dao tmr jiu sian lo!!</div><div>lesson until 5pm!</div><div>sadded much luh!! </div><div>cant go out with friends le...</div><div>ald planned liaox de lo... shag... =( </div><div>nvm shall go out with them next week ba! haha! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-830796299187600645?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-75790735540965555952011-04-16T23:36:00.003+08:002011-04-26T09:12:14.155+08:00the event is finally over!<div>which means no need to work ald!</div><div>can rest abit b4 sch starts again on monday... </div><div><br /></div><div>ytd was damn fun lo...</div><div>was slacking throughout during work coz nth to do...</div><div>then at night gt dinner...</div><div>after the dinner was drinkin with all of the rest...</div><div>yvonne managed to get us two rooms and we spent the night at the hotel...</div><div>like shiok only... =p</div><div>actually the two rooms is only for alan and joe, and guo wei de lo...</div><div>but in the end all of us stayed over and party...</div><div>lols...</div><div>1st time i ton outside lo...</div><div>so damn fun luh! =p</div><div>so in the end two rooms were shared by 8 of us... </div><div>including me, vivien, su yu, alan, joe, desmond, luo han and guo wei... =p</div><div>we were like happily drinking jim bean (which is some kind of bourbon whisky) mixed with coke lo... =p</div><div>and oso the red and white wine left from the dinner that we managed to kope... =p </div><div>all of us like crazy lo! keep playing tau pok and we like forever target vivien and tau pok her lo!! =p </div><div>the after that we were playing true or dare...</div><div>keep ask ppl who they would choose to date within the grp for truth...</div><div>then ask to kiss here and there for dare... </div><div>like wts lo! </div><div>haha!! but had a fun time la... =p</div><div>slept at 5am lo... then woke up at 8am!</div><div>tired max lo!</div><div><br /></div><div>think i shall slp le... </div><div>my mind is currently disorientated ald...</div><div>juz now bro was talking to me then i oso dono wat he talking lo...</div><div>then gave him the stupid retarded blur look which he immediately diao me lo!!</div><div>haha!! </div><div>nights earthlings!! =p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7579073554096555595?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-61899852963027404292011-04-14T20:44:00.002+08:002011-04-14T20:51:57.402+08:001st time home so early from work for this event.. lols... =p<div>was manning the publications booth todae and it was so damn sian lo...</div><div>almost wanted to slp ald... =p</div><div>but thankfully jacelyn, joe and desmond talked to me and kept me awake... =p</div><div>managed to sell three books todae... </div><div>tmr last dae of event which also implies the last dae working...</div><div>happy and sad at the same time...</div><div>happy coz can rest and go out with friends b4 sch reopen...</div><div>sad coz have to leave all the new friends i made... =/</div><div>lols... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>having a sore throat currently...</div><div>sian siol!!</div><div>going to last dae of work ald then still have to sore throat...</div><div>wts siol!! =(</div><div>hope tmr will be better ba....</div><div>seriously i don wish to be sick on the last dae of work siol!!</div><div>i want to leave beautiful memories of me working with all the new friends on the last dae and not remember as me being sick... =(</div><div>hopefully the honey water that mama has prepared for me will take effect and cure my sore throat by tmr morning... =) </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-6189985296302740429?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-76508501942029141022011-04-13T16:21:00.002+08:002011-04-13T16:30:57.145+08:00off day todae!! <div>happy coz can finally rest and gt time to upload all my pics from the cruise trip last week...</div><div>oso happy coz can wash all my clothes ald! esp my skirt... wear two days ald...</div><div>if no off day then i really die ald... </div><div>although is not i wash one la... but still at least mama can help me wash and then the clothes all can be dry by tmr then i can wear clean clothes to work tmr again!!</div><div>lols... =p</div><div>reali having a fun time working at this event job though i cant say wat is it abt coz is a confidential event... XD</div><div>met some reali naise peeps and had a fun time working with them... :)</div><div>me feet is hurting much coz the shoes are not reali fitting and i have to keep standing and walking in them...</div><div>now gt blisters all over... but nvm la...</div><div>now resting my feet... then tmr can work again..</div><div>good thing abt this job is that there is no sweating coz we are in the air-con throughout... </div><div>and also the food! we eat exactly the same food as wat the customers/participants eat!! </div><div>in others words, we are eating good food... yummy much!! =p</div><div><br /></div><div>sch is gonna reopen soon ald...</div><div>half anticipating for it and half not~~~ =/</div><div>hope can pull up my GPA further up in the coming semester... :)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7650850194202914102?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-30782506205756796062011-04-02T21:25:00.006+08:002011-04-02T21:34:51.043+08:00<div style="text-align: center;"><span class="Apple-style-span"><u><br /></u></span></div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-gD6fNYdeHRo/TZcj8J-OP2I/AAAAAAAAAB4/JZOO8AvFcyw/s1600/life%2527s%2Bnot%2Bfair.jpg" onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}"><img style="display: block; margin-top: 0px; margin-right: auto; margin-bottom: 10px; margin-left: auto; cursor: pointer; width: 258px; height: 196px; text-align: left; " src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-gD6fNYdeHRo/TZcj8J-OP2I/AAAAAAAAAB4/JZOO8AvFcyw/s320/life%2527s%2Bnot%2Bfair.jpg" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5590976978779783010" /></a><div><div>life's fair?? i so don think so!! hehes... =p</div><div>it's just a matter of getting use to it i suppose... </div><div><br /><div style="text-align: center;"><img src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/--Lt8VFA7IkM/TZckk7DAUQI/AAAAAAAAACI/Lz_hCrWLSek/s320/life%2527s%2Bnot%2Bfair1.jpg" /></div></div></div><div style="text-align: center;"><br /></div><div style="text-align: left;">too much things is happening and i reali feel so irritated ald luh!! </div><div style="text-align: left;">make me realise how unfair life can be at times... </div><div style="text-align: left;">the weather is so damn sucky and is so not helping me in terms of getting my mood in hand...</div><div style="text-align: left;">feel so irritated and reckless todae... =(</div><div style="text-align: left;">hopefully it will get better ba... =)</div><div style="text-align: left;">time to watch tv and RELAX!! :D</div><div style="text-align: left;">shall blog again soon!!</div><div style="text-align: left;">freaking weather is not helping me think properly...</div><div style="text-align: left;">so cant organise my mind enough to blog and grumble abt my life! </div><div style="text-align: left;"><span class="Apple-style-span" >LOLS!!!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" >=p</span></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3078250620575679606?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-41822525742470504962011-03-19T23:40:00.000+08:002011-03-19T23:42:07.454+08:00<div>The moon is super big and bright and naise todae...</div><div>Wondering if we are looking at the same night sky enjoying this beautiful sight...</div><div>Juz hope that u can be by my side at this moment... :) </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4182252574247050496?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-1970285678259843642011-03-19T14:15:00.002+08:002011-03-19T14:39:22.491+08:00am disturbed by a dream i had last night...<div>weird that i should dream of him...</div><div>and in the dream everything was so sweet...</div><div>exactly wat i have been longing for... =( </div><div>everything was over between the two of us since sec one where i foolishly said the wrong thing that should have been kept silent to him...</div><div>so why did i still dream of him?</div><div>afterall its been almost 5 years and i have never once dreamt of u... </div><div>so y now should u appear in my dreams... </div><div>its not like i can run back to u and change everything between us...</div><div>at least not anymore..</div><div>should i have dreamt of u last time when everything had juz happen, maybe, only maybe, i could have change the fate of the two of us... </div><div>gave each of us a chance... a chance to start a fairytale that i would never regret... </div><div>it makes no sense for me to go back and tell u those words that i have always wanted to tell u...</div><div>those three little words that could have change our fate... </div><div><br /></div><div>ok... i think i over-reacting abit...</div><div>fancy getting emo after a stupid dream of a guy that i used to crush upon like almost 5 years ago??!?!?!</div><div>wat on earth is wrong with me...</div><div>lols...</div><div>i think its oso my bro ba...</div><div>hate staying at home with him!!</div><div>super irritating siol! </div><div>so i think should be me feeling irritated and reckless which is why i am acting like a total emo kid now~~ hehes... =p</div><div>anw 5 years is a long enough time for me...</div><div>being the Serene Ho that i am... </div><div>if i had really wanted to do something to save everything... i would have done it ald...</div><div>otherwise no use regretting now... =)</div><div>and i can proudly say that i reali did tried to savage the situation back then... </div><div>so i have totally no regrets abt the outcome of the situation now... hehes... :D</div><div><br /></div><div>life's too short for us to have any regrets and to keep looking back at the past...</div><div>instead, we should live happily to the fullest every single dae!!! </div><div>SMILE UR BRIGHTEST SMILE EVERYDAE!! :D</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-197028567825984364?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-42647893345991000702011-03-15T18:01:00.003+08:002011-03-15T18:26:17.860+08:00rotting at home agian... sian... <div>=(</div><div>y IT fair so fast over sia...</div><div>damn sian...</div><div>and abit sad have to leave all those new friends that i have met... </div><div>but luckily gt add all, if not most of them on fb...</div><div>so can still keep in touch!!! hehes... =p </div><div>mama bought mac for me for lunch todae!! hehes...</div><div>ytd oso eat mac lo...</div><div>gonna be fat soon ald la!!! =p </div><div>and my face oso going to be jialat again la!! </div><div>keep on eating mcspicy... =p </div><div>currently chatting with some of the new friends on fb...</div><div>hehes....</div><div>and my wall is spammed by them lo...</div><div>all filled with scandals... XD</div><div>but finally stop le.... </div><div>i was still thinking ytd that todae all the scandals will stop...</div><div>but sadly i was wrong lo...</div><div>since morning again was still scandaling lo...</div><div>but now stop le... like finally lo... </div><div>wahahaha... :D</div><div>shall go fb agian!! lols... =p </div><div>that's all for todae!! i think... </div><div>wahahahaa... bye~~ ^o^</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4264789334599100070?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-75419641109398511912011-03-14T22:11:00.003+08:002011-03-14T22:57:55.588+08:00after finish typing realised that is quite a super duper long post...<div>so decided to write a warning 1st to those that have no patience for my long winded, very into detail recount of my experience at the IT fair... =p </div><div>so if u gt no time the BYE BYE~~~ ^o^</div><div><br /><div>have been slacking the whole dae at home todae...<div>sian TTM sia!! =(</div><div>reali miss working at the IT fair lo...</div><div>made so many new friends some more...</div><div>all very fun to work with...</div><div>reali had a great time working with all my besties and all the new friends i made.... =p </div><div>time passes so much faster when u are working..</div><div>and pass even faster when u are having fun working with all the crazy friends... :D</div><div>it is all so much better than rotting at home which was wat i have done the whole dae.. </div><div>gonna miss them all so much...</div><div>and the funny thing is that we all oso dono each other de name when working lo..</div><div>then we all ald joke and play like a crazy bunch of kids that have known each other like super duper long lidat... =p </div><div>it is only ytd that we added each other on fb then we know all the names lo...</div><div>cool or wat!!! hehes... =p</div><div>but this proves how friendly we all are!!! ^^</div><div><br /></div><div>we were all crazi and super high from giving out flyers lo...</div><div>keep on ask ppl take and throw away or sell to karang guni...</div><div>WAHAHAHAA,....=p</div><div>then still lie that we gt quota to meet... and the ppl reali help us take sia!!!</div><div>reali need to thank all these kind-hearted ppl luh... =p </div><div>hehes...</div><div>some more we all own people from within the clique once in a while when finish our flyers will walk one round and help all to take some of the flyers and throw away before taking another set of flyers to distribute lo...</div><div>all kajiao one sia!! =p</div><div><br /></div><div>another thing that i will miss from working at this IT fair is all the scandal lo!!! </div><div>it was so scandalous... </div><div>everybody oso tio la!!! </div><div>me included la!!!! </div><div>all the clique oso gt... the two indian ahbengs, the ANZ guy, the 3 mircosoft guys, one random guy that suyu saw and said that his smile very naise!!! and oso gt one super irritating act cute HIHI bra gal... LOLs... (i know the name super damn long, but i think u will somehow knw how she is from the name suggested... )</div><div>the moment this gal come to our side to distribute the flyers everybody will be so sian lo... then we will all keep quiet... then she herself ownself high ownself happy... lols...</div><div>i sound so evil... but nvm... is the truth.. =p</div><div>wahahaah... =DD</div><div>and we even scandal until the security guard lo... hehes... =p</div><div>and sadly to say, the 3 mircosoft guys are my scandal!! LOLx!!! XD</div><div>no choice... coz only i talked to them... vivien tay, suyu, vivien tan and regina all oso dono them... </div><div>haix...</div><div>but nvm... hehes.... anw they good looking oso... :p</div><div>but wasted lei... all ppl i oso gt take photo with... </div><div>only the 3 mircosoft ones i neva take with them lei... =(</div><div>so sadded lo... hehes.... =p </div><div>regina de scandal even jialat lo...</div><div>her security was so damn obvious the he like her lo....</div><div>then try to use me and vivien tay to jio her... </div><div>hehes... =p </div><div>funni luh!! even the ppl at regina de booth oso know abt this scandal la!! </div><div>totally scandalous!!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>hmmm... i think i shall stop with all these scandalous gossips ald luh...</div><div>fb is ald flooding with it!! hehes... =p</div><div>but cmf will die out later de lo... </div><div>sian...</div><div>then nth to entertain me le...</div><div>hehes...</div><div>but seriously had alot of good memories from this IT fair...</div><div>might consider working for it again...</div><div>then can ask all of the people to work tgt again...</div><div>and have fun again!!! </div></div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7541964110939851191?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-11901728335990531112011-03-13T09:23:00.004+08:002011-03-13T09:33:32.518+08:00been bz lately and hence the dead blog... <div>muahahahaa... =DD</div><div>working at the IT fair at suntec since thursday...</div><div>gonna die soon le la...</div><div>teehee~~ ^^</div><div>muscle aching like shit... </div><div>working as a flyer distributor..</div><div>hate it when ppl don wana help us take the flyers lo... =(</div><div>or when ppl help u take ald then see see then give u back...</div><div>cant they just dump it into the rubbish bin? LOL... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>today is the last dae ald!!! </div><div>after that can rest... =)</div><div>but sian la... </div><div>still need to go back astons and work... </div><div>haven been working since exams....</div><div>and its miracle that mike haven called me and ask me if my exams are over ald or not....</div><div>lols...</div><div><br /></div><div>anw made alot of new friends at the IT fair...</div><div>they are all damn fun and funni!!! =D</div><div>had so much fun working with all of them lo...</div><div>the cool thing is that we all oso dono each ohters name lo...</div><div>then we all act like noe each other damn well lidat...</div><div>then keep playing and joking and fooling ard while working... =p</div><div>but nvm!! this is the thing that makes everything <span class="Apple-style-span">FUN</span>!!! </div><div>gonna miss them all after this IT fair... =(</div><div>shall ask them all for their facebook later!! XD</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1190172833599053111?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-57677165038286949242011-02-12T23:17:00.002+08:002011-02-12T23:40:55.872+08:00worked todae from 12 to 8pm...<div>should actually be until 7pm de lo...</div><div>but got extended coz not enough staff... </div><div>imma getting lazier and lazier to work le...</div><div>sian... =(</div><div>think i'm gonna find another job soon ba...</div><div>sick and bored of this job le..</div><div>lols.. </div><div><br /></div><div>dono why i always feel so depressed and sad after working... </div><div>last week oso lidat.. todae oso lidat....</div><div>sian...</div><div>don like this kind of feeling but it just keep coming... =(</div><div>i think this had gt something to do with u ba...</div><div>or rather, i should say: is all because of u ba...</div><div><br /></div><div>was on the mrt home juz now and i was suddenly reminded of last time where u would accompany me home when i 1st started working and got to know u...</div><div>even if it means taking a longer mrt route, u were so willing to accompany me despite u working the next dae and would get home late... </div><div>i reali miss it...</div><div>we would talk abt work and even if we are not talking, i still love how it felt to have u by my side... </div><div><br /></div><div>i should stop thinking about all this nonsense ald la and start studying!!!</div><div>coz my exams are two weeks away only!!! wth~~~~ =(</div><div>but i seriously miss all those feelings that he had given me as well as those memories between us though they are not alot and are all short-term ones...</div><div>those memories may be small and insignificant to u and u might not even rmb...</div><div>but they mean alot to me... and i reali mean ALOT... </div><div>i think now is the time that i reali have to let go of everything le...</div><div>to face up to reality and accept the fact that it impossible between the two of us...</div><div>all those memories that u have given me, regardless of how small they are will be kept in the safest place on earth; my heart...</div><div><br /></div><div>i know i have said in the past so much times that it is countless that i wanna forget him...</div><div>but have always failed at it coz i was unable to let go of the feelings that i have for him..</div><div>but hopefully this will be the last post that i am writing abt him... HOPEFULLY~~~~</div><div><br /></div><div>shall go slp now and forget everything...</div><div>i shall try to get over this feeling that i have for him....soon.... =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5767716503828694924?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-37990519955710958232011-02-09T23:41:00.006+08:002011-02-11T14:19:06.303+08:00shall do a quick one tonight...<div>wanna slp ald...</div><div>tired liaox...</div><div>hehes...</div><div>went to derrick hoh de campus concert at NP todae with suyu!!</div><div>so high lo..</div><div>lols...</div><div>first time going to such event...</div><div>hehes.. =p</div><div>derrick really very cute and shuai la!!</div><div>i'm still drooling over him la!!</div><div>LOLx... =/</div><div><br /></div><div><img src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_gxVBAANuBUc/TVK53DrIeqI/AAAAAAAAABE/LYXexS3dmbA/s320/IMG_1228.JPG" style="float:left; margin:0 10px 10px 0;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5571720044540885666" /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>me and suyu with our tix!! :D</div><div><br /></div><div> </div><div><img src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_gxVBAANuBUc/TVK6ImvlFaI/AAAAAAAAABM/xCbYNgq7Xow/s320/IMG_1229.JPG" style="cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 240px; height: 320px;" border="0" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5571720346012554658" /></div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div><div>anw went to vivien de hse todae after sch...</div><div>then she gt two dogs mah...</div><div>wah!! den when me and suyu enter her hse hor..</div><div>her two dogs keep barking at us lo..</div><div>i scared TTM sia...</div><div>although i like dogs la...</div><div>but i oso scared of them de lo...</div><div>somemore i oso never have a dog as pet b4...</div><div>haix...</div><div>T_T</div><div>den when we eating the dogs keep come sniff at me and stare at me lo... scared siol...</div><div>after lunch at vivien de hse jiu went over to suyu de hse...</div><div>her dog quieter than vivien de dogs... hehes...</div><div>but her yoyo keep sniffing at me lo....</div><div>suyu says is coz i gt gigi and snowy de smell on me...</div><div>but yoyo not so scary la...</div><div>at least i dare to pat pat her...</div><div>hehes.... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>feel so embarrass and sad lo...</div><div>that i have to show this side of me that even i had it myself to my friends... =(</div><div>to show them the side of me that is scared of something... =(</div><div>i can be strong in other things.. </div><div>like to not cry or hold back my tears even in the worse possible situation...</div><div>but i really cant control my fear...</div><div>some more is for such a small things...</div><div>sadded... T.T</div><div>hate it hate it!!</div><div>hate myself even more!! ='( </div><div><br /></div><div>讨厌在朋友的面前把这么脆弱的我显示出来....</div><div>有时就连我都很讨厌我自己...</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3799051995571095823?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-56136870533852313332011-02-08T20:34:00.000+08:002011-02-08T21:16:05.830+08:00first of all.. a very HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! <div>was kinda bored but kinda fun at the same time...</div><div>lols...</div><div>chu yi went to er yi de hse bai nian...</div><div>played monopoly deal with didi, da ge, er ge, and henderson kor kor...</div><div>gambled abit... wahahaa...</div><div>won $20 plus dollar... =p</div><div>then evening jiu went home le...</div><div>then watched red cliff part 2.... hehes... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>chu er went to mr tan peng yeon hse with boon, tkl, jin hui huixin laopo and all...</div><div>total 14 of us... too lazy to write all the names le...</div><div>hehes... =p</div><div>gambled and eat tibits and also lao yu sheng there...</div><div>the yu sheng very naise!! XD</div><div>didnt really win alot coz we only played 10cent and 20cents...</div><div>LOL!!</div><div>hehes... =p</div><div>but nvm la...</div><div>new year play fun fun can le la...</div><div>hehes...</div><div>then evening went to TKL de hse... </div><div>den gambled again... lols...</div><div>same amt of money..</div><div>hehes,...</div><div>went home ard 10 lidat...</div><div><br /></div><div>chu san went to watch movie with mama and didi... =p</div><div>watched i love hong kong...</div><div>the show very funny and naise oso lo...</div><div>like it...</div><div>actually mama wanna watch it's a great world de lo....</div><div>but no seats le... =p</div><div><br />then chu si stayed at home and choing projects...</div><div>need to do ppt and prepare for presentation the next day...</div><div>sian lo...</div><div>chu wu sch reopen jiu gt presentation le lo... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>overall had a quite fun and quite boring de cny...</div><div>hehes... =p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5613687053385231333?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-40488448828476842862011-01-31T22:18:00.002+08:002011-01-31T22:49:43.171+08:00brrr~~~<div>i'm still as cold as ever...</div><div>i need hug hug...</div><div>anyone??</div><div>lols...</div><div>i'm sounding like a despo or something sia...</div><div>asking for hugs everywhere....</div><div>1st is on fb...</div><div>then now here...</div><div>what's next?? twitter??</div><div>too bad i don have a bf to gimme hug hug... lols...</div><div>dono why keep thinking abt this kind of things recently...</div><div>i think i muz be crazy la!!! </div><div>i sound like a freaking despo sia....</div><div>wth~~</div><div>forget it... </div><div>i think i shall juz curl up under my blanket tonight and stop sounding like a freaking despo...</div><div>=p</div><div>but i have to admit that this kind of weather is good too!!!</div><div>hehes...</div><div>loving it and hating it at the same time...</div><div>contradicting feelings...</div><div>if not for my lousy nose that get nose block all the time..</div><div>i would definitely not hate this kind of weather de...</div><div>hehes...</div><div><br /></div><div>and yes!!! all the major projects are over ald...</div><div>only left with one more ITB...</div><div>then left abit more nia...</div><div>so no worries... =p </div><div>can enjoy my CNY le!! ^^</div><div>but todae super lazy...</div><div>have been slacking and nua-ing since i reached home...</div><div>neva do tutorials oso...</div><div>don care le la...</div><div>think i shall go snuggle in my comfy bed and blankie and go to my lala land ald... hehes...=p </div><div>nights world!!! cya tmr!! lols... XD</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4048844882847684286?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-257406967659971112011-01-30T21:19:00.006+08:002011-01-31T23:00:52.914+08:00这段时间我是不是一直都在欺骗自己呢?<div>欺骗自己对你的感觉呢?</div><div>其实我自己也不知道...</div><div>我还以为自己已经放下了对你的感觉...</div><div>或许是我错了吧...</div><div><br /></div><div>一直到昨天做工时才发现我始终还没放下...</div><div>不知道为什么昨天知道你比我早放工时</div><div>心里好就有了一些失望的感觉</div><div>因为知道那样就不能和你一起坐的士回家...</div><div>就少了一个能和你聊天的机会...</div><div>即使我想要在车上睡.. 也不能靠在你的肩膀上睡...</div><div>可是也没办法... </div><div>只好忍着心里的失望继续把工做完</div><div>放工后也不知哪来的力量, 既然发了一段简讯给你</div><div>可是你没回我... =(</div><div>等了好久好久好久都没收到你的回讯.......... </div><div><br /></div><div>在车上时觉得很累</div><div>原本想要睡一下的.. 可是不知为什闭上眼时又睡不到...</div><div>可能是太习惯在车上有你在身旁了吧</div><div>所以没你在身旁感觉怪怪的..睡不着...</div><div>我对你太依赖了吧... </div><div>我想 是时候我也该戒掉对你的这种依赖了吧...</div><div>就让我慢慢学习, 适应身旁没有你... </div><div><br /></div><div>我想我们之间也是不可能的啦</div><div>我也相信你也是不会喜欢我的啦</div><div>一定不像我喜欢你般的一样喜欢我</div><div>只不过是我自己一个人一厢情愿的恋情...</div><div>一个不会开花, 不会有结果的恋情... </div><div>所以要我自己放下对你的感也是一个好的事情吧</div><div>这么一来我也不会一直去乱想</div><div>改天做工时看到你也不会这么心痛, 这么不开心...</div><div>可以以一个真正朋友的身份和你说话... =)</div><div><br /></div><div>好吧...我想我就说到这里吧</div><div>说得越多我就一定越放不下对你的感觉</div><div>我下一次会再看到你应该是两个礼拜后吧... </div><div>我一定会用尽这两个礼拜的时间来放下对你所有的感觉</div><div>酱我就可以把你当一个朋友来看待了... =)</div><div><br /></div><div>就让我一个人去痛到受不了</div><div>想到快疯掉</div><div>死不了就还好.....</div><div><br /></div><div>我就不相信我会笨到忘不了</div><div>赖着不放掉....</div><div><br /></div><div>我总会把你戒掉.... </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-25740696765997111?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-45354009102988344002011-01-30T21:06:00.003+08:002011-01-30T21:19:16.799+08:00my nose feels like it is dropping off la.. <div>=(</div><div>the weather is so cold todae...</div><div>but is a nice weather to slp...</div><div>=)</div><div>feeling so slpy now...</div><div>think i shall slp early tonight since i oso gt no mood to do all my tutorials..</div><div>haven even touch any single of them...</div><div>shall chiong them all tmr ba...</div><div>hopefully... </div><div>=p</div><div>tmr still gt HOM front desk practical test...</div><div>haven even really go and read through all the notes lo...</div><div>die...</div><div>have been slacking todae..</div><div>haix...</div><div>too much energy too much time spent on project until now don even have any more mood left for hw and other things....</div><div>even blogging now is like taking alot of energy of mine lo...</div><div>considering the fact that i ald wanna slp le...</div><div>lols</div><div>then tmr still gt dental appointment...</div><div>sian..</div><div>coz the practical test need to wear formal...</div><div>then lazy to bring shirt and change... coz lidat will then need to bring alot of things...</div><div>so means i have to look like a crazy woman and wear formal to dental...</div><div>some more dental appointment in the middle of my sch hour...</div><div>have to go during my break and rush back sch...</div><div>sian TTM!!!</div><div>sure imma gonna look like a crazy woman tmr rushing here and there de lo... =/</div><div><br /></div><div>and tmr is the submission for the integrated project ald...</div><div>like finally~~~</div><div>one more project down...</div><div>den left with ITB nia...</div><div>its also a good thing that this project going to be over soon le...</div><div>coz a lot of conflicts within grp for this damn project lo... </div><div>so yea... good thing... hehes....</div><div>after ITB will be the final exams...</div><div>den year 1 sem 2 will be over le!! </div><div>means HOLIDAYS le!!! yipee!!! ^^</div><div>lols</div><div>but i have to reali work hard ald la...</div><div>GPA like shit lidat...</div><div>still thinking of holi...</div><div>haix...</div><div>im hopeless sia...</div><div>lousy student...</div><div>wahahah... </div><div>shall work hard to pull up my GPA... =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4535400910298834400?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-13745575784148435782011-01-28T13:36:00.002+08:002011-01-28T13:47:19.227+08:00currently waiting for turn to present for LMS...<div>bored much~~~ XD</div><div>after this den everything will be more relax le...</div><div>hehes...</div><div>todae oso the dateline for the BMGT project...</div><div>finally one of the heavy stone off my shoulders...</div><div>can at least breathe now....</div><div>then come monday the HOM-FABM integrated will be due too!!!</div><div>YIPEE!!!</div><div>=p</div><div>then i will only have ITB project left~~ </div><div>wahahha... =DD</div><div>can enjoy CNY TTM le... wahahaha...</div><div>LOL... =p </div><div><br /></div><div>but after that will be the final exams... so sian~~~ =/</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1374557578414843578?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-19011790607447111402011-01-26T00:00:00.002+08:002011-01-26T00:09:40.928+08:00currently having a damn headache... <div>and damn blocked nose...</div><div>seriously la!! wth is wrong...</div><div>keep getting blocked nose these days lo...</div><div>been a week that i have been having blocked nose ald lo...</div><div>=(</div><div>my body/health feels like its getting from bad to worse lo...</div><div>my face oso la!!</div><div>i look so totally like a freak now lo...</div><div>so damn freaking many pimple and acne on my face....</div><div>making my face look so god damned red... T_T</div><div>damn ugly now la~~~sian~~~~</div><div>ZZzzzz...</div><div>T_T</div><div>haix...</div><div>i think i better go orh orh now la...</div><div>slping late oso not good for face...</div><div>later more pimple come out then i die~~~~</div><div>den will get more depressed ald lo...</div><div>so ya~~~</div><div>NIGHTS!!!!</div><div>^_^</div><div>may my face recover soon and be free of pimples and acnes... =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1901179060744711140?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-46547469141309080652011-01-21T14:37:00.003+08:002011-01-21T15:11:12.298+08:00currently rotting and wasting my time at LMS...<div>so damn sian...</div><div>hiax.... =/</div><div>don like friday....</div><div>waste of time lo... studying for LMS...</div><div>rather sleep at home lo...</div><div>and still gt project for it...</div><div>don feel like doing but no choice...</div><div>me don wanna flung my LMS when my GPA is ald like shit....</div><div>all i can say is.... NP reali bo liao la!!!</div><div>they think i nth to do isit... like i don have any other projects to do lidat lo... </div><div>sian ar~~~~</div><div>all the projects going to due soon le..</div><div>all due next week le...</div><div>then i can officially declare that i am free from all the bloody projects... ^^</div><div>but come to think again, after all the projects then exams coming soon le...</div><div>aiyo~~~ sian TTM la!!! T_T</div><div>den still need to work... tired siol...</div><div>think i shall take another break from working to prepare for my exams soon ba...</div><div>think i will tell mike after chinese new year ba... =p </div><div>cmf he will show me that face when i tell him de lo...</div><div>say that i have only come back from my study break de...</div><div>coz that time common test period ald took like one month off le... </div><div>sure he will ask me to quit study de lo...</div><div>den work for him...</div><div>which is wat he is basically saying every time i tell him i busy with studies when he ask me to work more days...</div><div>he so damn gl..</div><div>don like him TTM!!</div><div>he think i wat sia.... machine or robot...</div><div>damn him...</div><div>me every week work one day for him very good ald lo...</div><div>some more i is work full shift eh... 12 hrs lei!!</div><div>like hello?!!?!?! he think i so damn freaking free ar...</div><div>no need to do hw... lol..</div><div>last week i fall down he oso like no care lo...</div><div>no care about how i am den nvm la... </div><div>i don care... no need his concern...</div><div>anw oso wont die from that fall...</div><div>only got bruises all over my right legs and hand nia ma... </div><div>死不了... </div><div>then he still say until i like purposely want to fall down lidat lo... </div><div>say " aiyo~~ serene ar~~ next time don lidat lei... "</div><div>WAT SHIT LA!!!</div><div>damn him...</div><div>don want care abt staff is ur prob... not mine...</div><div>not happy just FUCK OFF!!!</div><div>go and hide in ur crappy office and stare at the com for the whole dae...</div><div>lol...</div><div><br /></div><div>hmm... how come i am complaining now~~</div><div>LOL!!!</div><div>must reali be too bored ald la... =p</div><div>shall stop now...</div><div>hehes... </div><div><br /></div><div>anw think i will change job after new year or during the school holidays if i can find a job ba... </div><div>=p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4654746914130908065?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-15909045360200674772011-01-18T12:20:00.002+08:002011-01-18T12:26:29.997+08:00currently rotting in MAEC tutorial...<div>so damn sian..</div><div>haix...</div><div>hungry and sleepy much...</div><div>stomach is growling... =(</div><div>waiting for the class to end in like another 35 more mins.. </div><div>all i can think of is food now...</div><div>should i eat mac later or juz grab some bites at old chang kee??</div><div>LOL...</div><div>dono mama gt cook lunch anot...</div><div>shall call home later after class...</div><div>if she neva cook then probably buy mac go home eat ba..</div><div>LOL!!!</div><div><br /></div><div>ok... seriously im talking crap right now~~</div><div>haix...</div><div>but cant be helped la...</div><div>its hard to think properly when im so damn hungry with my stomach growling every few seconds...</div><div>haix... </div><div>ALL I WANT NOW IS NOTHING BUT FOOD!!! </div><div>ROAR~~ </div><div>=p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1590904536020067477?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-50789790143709967182011-01-17T23:02:00.002+08:002011-01-17T23:33:23.439+08:00almost a week since i never post le... wahahaha.. =DD<div>went back to work on the 8th, sat...</div><div>didnt blog abt this coz was too angry and totally forgot abt it as seen from the previous post...</div><div>lol...</div><div>anw all the old staff quit le lo..</div><div>now only left me...</div><div>damn sian... </div><div>that time work oso nobody to talk to lo...</div><div>haix... but gt new staff la...</div><div>so shall make new frens...</div><div>otherwise i think i will die of boredom when working de lo... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>then the rest of the week was basically the same... </div><div>all is either hw or projects...</div><div>so damn freaking no life la!! </div><div>=(</div><div>then sat when to work again... on the 15th...</div><div>full shift again as usual...</div><div>damn tired...</div><div>coz only slept for 2 hours...</div><div>6am to 8am nia...</div><div>haiz... </div><div>when to meet mag and the rest of the clique in the morning...</div><div>wanted to eat breakfast with them de..</div><div>but me late abit den the queue very long lo.. then me neva eat... coz they all oso eat finish ald wat...</div><div>den talk talk awhile den i go home le...</div><div>need to prepare to go work...</div><div>while they all go USS to celebrate xinyi's de birthdae...</div><div>sian lo...</div><div>me want to go oso...</div><div>dying to go to the USS for like a damn freaking long time le....</div><div>but mama don wanna bring me... T_T</div><div>NVM!! I SHALL SAVE UP AND GO MYSELF ONE DAE!!! =)</div><div>so went home den cook maggie and fast fast eat...</div><div>den go work le....</div><div>was so tired lo...</div><div>like walking zombie lidat...</div><div>den break time after eat le when to slp for 30 mins lidat...</div><div>wake up still feel so slpy lo... </div><div>but at least better la... gt rest dao abit...</div><div>so not that jialat...</div><div>den evening damn alot of ppl lo...</div><div>somemore outside raining... cant open outdoor... </div><div>both good and bad la... =p </div><div>so quite busy lo... good thing is that it helped to keep me slightly awake...</div><div>bad thing is i ald tired until wanna die ald...</div><div>juz when i thought things counlnt get worse enough...</div><div>i fell down lo!!!</div><div>was helping fren to take ice coz gt she drinks order mah... </div><div>and she new oso...</div><div>den i have to slip and fall at the pantry...</div><div>haix... =(</div><div>so god damn paiseh la!!!</div><div>somemore that time gt customer making payment there...</div><div>then i saw the customer's de face...</div><div>he like totally shock dao la!! </div><div>quite funny lo...</div><div>but that time ald like paiseh until wanna die ald so no mood to laugh.... =p</div><div>the whole bucket of ice all spilled on the floor... haix... </div><div>den all the ppl there at the pantry all like rushed to me lo...</div><div>esp shirley... she at the cashier there...</div><div>den before i knew it she was like in front of me asking if i ok anot and trying to help me up... =p</div><div>hehes...</div><div>so now i gt blue black all over my right legs...</div><div>lucky i is fell sideways to my right side...</div><div>cant imagine if i were to fall flat on my face... =p </div><div>reali la!! sauy TTM la!!</div><div>work so long ald oso neva fall down before...</div><div>then ronny told me that when i fell, the sound was very loud...</div><div>like the whole astons can hear lidat... </div><div>T_T</div><div>paiseh TTM sia!!!</div><div>lucky i not those kind will cry easily de...</div><div>esp not in public and in front of ppl...</div><div><br /></div><div>den worked until closing lo...</div><div>then took cab with shirley, ah fu and liang ann home... </div><div>was super duper tired then den asked ah fu if he can be the last that time anot...</div><div>coz normally i will be that last one de wat...</div><div>den he say ok... wahahahah... =DD</div><div>den sleep all the way in the cab until reach home....</div><div>had a quick shower den sleep again... hehes... =p </div><div><br /></div><div>then sunday as usual lo...</div><div>project meeting in sch again...</div><div>tired still~~~</div><div><br /></div><div>think i shall go slp now~~~</div><div>still very tired~~~</div><div>dono wat is wrong with me lo... hehes.... =p </div><div>actually still wanna blog abt something else de...</div><div>but i wanna slp le...</div><div>so shall blog abt it tmr ba..</div><div>anw it is gonna be a emo post...</div><div>coz after i blog abt it...</div><div>imma gonna forget everything... </div><div>forget him...</div><div>forget the feelings... =p </div><div><br /></div><div>alritex!! good night world!! =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5078979014370996718?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-41626101182222259652011-01-09T19:41:00.002+08:002011-01-09T20:15:49.871+08:00gonna do a quick blog before im off to do all the bloody projects and tutorials... <div>and be warn!! this post is more of a complain post...</div><div>so juz press the little red 'x' button on the top right hand side of ur screen if u do not have to patience... </div><div>otherwise it will be ur prob if u get irritated by this post...</div><div>i don care... i seriously don give a fucking damn...</div><div><br /></div><div>todae was like a super duper uber bad day la!!!</div><div>damn...</div><div>firstly, sunday is SUPPOSED to be a family day or a day where we get to rest at home and catch up with all our homeworks and tutorials!!!</div><div>not a day to meet up for projects!!! SO NOT!!!! </div><div>and i have to oversleep and be late coz i slept at 2am due to me working...</div><div>and reaching home so god damned late coz i was working closing and was the last one for the cab ride with the rest of my colleagues home... =(</div><div>on top of it i was so damn freaking tired... </div><div>my eyelids were like so damn heavy la!!! =(</div><div>then we have to go the whole day WITHOUT ANY LUNCH!!! </div><div>SERIOUSLY!!! THIS IS LIKE SO WHAT THE SHIT LA!!!</div><div>cant u juz let the rest of us eat???!!!!?!?!?!?!?</div><div>we know that u can stand it to skip a meal but the rest of us cant!!!!</div><div>esp suyu!!! she is sick for godness sake!!!</div><div>can u let her eat something!!</div><div>like hello!! she has ald turn up for the project meeting despite being sick ald...</div><div>yes... i know she was late... but it is seriously NOT HER FAULT WHAT!! </div><div>its like she cant help it oso de wat!!! </div><div>if she can choose of course she will choose not to be sick wat....</div><div>which SICKO on earth would choose to be sick for no reason?? LOL!!!! </div><div>and the only thing that u know is to ask us to do and for ideas... </div><div>we all hungry like hell ald how do u expect us to come up with ideas for the project...</div><div>cant u like let us eat something first??</div><div>P-I-S-S-E-D-!-!-!</div><div>also... everything we do oso wrong!!</div><div>but u cant say out where exactly is wrong and want us to redo again!! </div><div>shit u la!!! </div><div><br /></div><div>i think i have enough la... </div><div>gotta go and finish up my tutorials otherwise tmr i die~~~ =/</div><div>no point wasting too much time blogging and complaining abt a person that makes my blood boil.... </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4162610118222225965?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-78355690041620050512011-01-05T10:14:00.002+08:002011-01-05T10:19:08.374+08:00currently in ITB tutorial...<div>it is so damn freaking bored....</div><div>don even know what the teacher is talking about lo... =(</div><div>sian ar~~~</div><div>sleeping soon le la...</div><div>haiz.... T_T</div><div>dono wat to write ald la...</div><div>damn lazy...</div><div>=/ </div><div>shall post again tonight ba... =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-7835569004162005051?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-8860992098079715482011-01-01T04:03:00.004+08:002011-01-01T23:19:20.588+08:00finally 2011 has arrived!!! <div>woo~~~ <span class="Apple-tab-span" style="white-space:pre"> </span>XD</div><div>may the new chapter of my life begins...</div><div>and new memories and stories to be created... =)</div><div>and all the bad and painful memories be forgetten...</div><div>ok, maybe not really forgotten, but buried away... </div><div>never to have myself be reminded of them again...</div><div>coz all these unwanted memories have taught us valuable lessons in our lives in a way or another... </div><div>=)</div><div><br /></div><div>2010 is a memorable year for me in alot of ways...</div><div><br /></div><div>it is the 1st time that i have a 'proper' job at tanglin club...</div><div>as waitress... and meet really good and cool colleagues and managers... </div><div>oso the place where i met Hady... =)</div><div>not like the previous job that i have a mac when i was 14...</div><div>it is the year that im finally free of braces... =DD</div><div>LOL... =.=!!</div><div>it is my 1st year in poly and it is a totally different experience from pri and sec sch life... </div><div>both in a bad way and good way...</div><div>i also gained a ah bu (jiamei) and ah pa (tian hong) this year!! hehes... =p </div><div>love them muchies muchies!! ^o^</div><div>the year where i have chiong alot... and i mean damn damn alot of movies with my friends... which i have never before...</div><div>the first time where i really fell in love... =) my 1st stead, my 1st kiss... LOL... =p</div><div>the year where the number of quarrels with my mum was alot lesser compared to my sec 3 and 4 life...</div><div>the first time i chiong work so hard for a whole month... at astons @ cathay... 6 days a week, 12 hours daily, just for the sake of buying a new phone... =p </div><div>where i reali meet a super good and cool supervisor, Joel, who is a good superior of mine as well as a good friend where i can easily talk to and relate to... =)</div><div>reali met alot of good friends at astons, like wilson, yu xiang, lydia, karen and alot alot and damn lot more... hehes... ^^</div><div><br /></div><div>it is also the year where i fell out of love for the first time...</div><div>don like it.. =(</div><div>really hurts alot like hell... ='(</div><div>the first time i broke something at work... a glass ice cream cup at tanglin club... =p</div><div>my first time where i lost my belongings while outside playing with friends... lost my phone and wallet and everything... LOL!! =p </div><div>the year where i crushed on someone which was totally impossible between us and have to let go... =(</div><div>the time where i fell so deeply in love with someone within the short time of two weeks but he juz cant seem to get over his ex and i have to let go... again... ='( and it hurts damn damn much....</div><div>but i have no choice...</div><div><br /></div><div>but all these are over ald...</div><div>those good memories i will keep...</div><div>those bad memories i will keep too... coz they have all taught me valuable lessons in life... =)</div><div><br /></div><div>now imma gonna forget abt the past...</div><div>let the past be past... </div><div>and work towards the present... =)</div><div><div>coz wat is done cant be undone...</div><div>there is simply no such thing as the undo or backspace button in our lives...</div></div><div>let go watever i have to let go...</div><div>all those unfruitful relationships... </div><div>forget those that i have to forget...</div><div>those special feelings that i have for those special someones that i have met in 2010...</div><div>let those special feeling be over written with the purest of the purest feeling; friendship!! =)</div><div>and learn to keep these people in my life as friends and nth more... juz good friends... =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-886099209807971548?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-59159063466381435852011-01-01T03:31:00.002+08:002011-01-01T04:03:11.871+08:00<div>HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!</div><div>may all of us had a great and memorable 2010... even if we don... we still have 2011 now!!!</div><div>look forward!!!</div><div>may all our happiness and joy in 2010 stay with us and those sadness and painful memories go away... forever and never to be returned~~ hehes... </div><div>may 2011 be filled with fun, joy, happiness and laughter for everyone!! and may the new chapter of our life begins!!!! =DD</div><div><br /></div>had an enjoyable dae todae with friends to countdown for new year... <div>=D</div><div>meet up with Daniel, Kai Lun, Kelvin, Kenji, Justin, Jing Ting, and San Chang at 5.30pm then train-ed to town... </div><div>dinner-ed at Just Acia at dhoby and walked to cine after that to slack until our movie start...</div><div>usual 'routine'.. slack at the arcade... </div><div>den watched The Tourist at 11.15pm...</div><div>hehes... </div><div>justin's idea...</div><div>coz he say he wanna tell everyone that he watched movie all the way from last year to this year...</div><div>LOL!!</div><div>hehes... XD</div><div>so, our countdown was a quiet event inside the cinema.. =)</div><div>after movie ended, went to catch the train home....</div><div>ate supper, or should i say breakfast at marsiling there de coffeeshop with Kelvin, Kai Lun, and Daniel.. then Zi Wei just acc us lo....sit there and talk talk... </div><div>our 1st meal for 2011... Lor Mee...</div><div>LOL!! XD<!--</div--><div>after that Dan then walked home with me then walked back to marsiling there to ton at ZW de hse lo... </div><div>wahahaha... </div><div>actually me oso wanna ton at ZW de hse de lo.. </div><div>but mama don let...</div><div>haix...</div><div>wth sia.. =(</div><div>nvm... still will gt chance de...</div><div>and i am so going to find the chance to ton at friend hse de!! </div><div>hehes...</div><div>tmr going pool with the few of them again..</div><div>hehes...</div><div>i think i going broke soon le la...</div><div>gonna go back to work soon le...</div><div>probably next week ba... =)</div></div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-5915906346638143585?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-19339993699649696482010-12-29T00:25:00.001+08:002010-12-29T00:27:51.291+08:00finally change my blogskin after such a long time...<div>have been wanting to change it since a long time ago but is always too busy or too lazy...</div><div>wahahaha.... =p </div><div>hate changing blogskin lo...</div><div>so troublesome...</div><div>but sick of the old blogskin ald...</div><div>hehes... =p </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1933999369964969648?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-45411661760381654632010-12-28T22:44:00.001+08:002010-12-28T22:45:50.304+08:00have been chionging project so much...<div>stress and sian TTM!!! =(</div><div>my holidays are totally and superly not like holiday lo...</div><div>pathetic~~ </div><div>hate it hate it!! </div><div>ARGH!!!!</div><div>T_T</div><div>juz hope all this irritating projects can be over quickly... </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-4541166176038165463?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-28779558745420714812010-12-27T23:43:00.000+08:002010-12-28T01:24:24.269+08:00had a great dae spent with Teena, June, Jennifer and Foong Oi today!!! ^^ <div>went to meet them after my project meeting to celebrate Teena's belated bdae... </div><div>hehes...</div><div>met up with them at Taka...</div><div>den walk to Plaza Singapura to eat coz they all wanna eat Swensen's...</div><div>was joking and crapping and playing ard throughout the walk to PS...</div><div>den went to eat... wait for awhile before we got a table...</div><div>den waited even longer for our food lo...</div><div>was still talking and joking while waiting for food...</div><div>laugh until my jaw muscles damn sore lo...</div><div>hehes...</div><div>then they keep on say that one of the staff there look like me lo...</div><div>LOL!!</div><div>hehes... =p </div><div>den after eat ald went outside PS to take photos....</div><div>whee~~</div><div>hehes.. </div><div>LOL... =p </div><div>den mama called and rushed me to go home...</div><div>hiax... =(</div><div>den train-ed back with them...</div><div>was still camwhoring inside the mrt...</div><div>after that stop le coz very crowded...</div><div>den went on to talk more and laugh some more...</div><div>basically the whole mrt was filled with all our laughter lo...</div><div>wahahahaha... =DD</div><div>reali enjoyed myself todae lots lots!!! ^^ </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-2877955874542071481?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-2391582261034670102010-12-27T00:20:00.002+08:002010-12-27T00:24:20.070+08:00just when i am reali falling for u...<div>u left me.. =(</div><div>telling me that u cant let go of ur past... </div><div>but i don blame u for that...</div><div>coz it is all my one sided thinking right from the start to start off with..</div><div>i knew this would happen...</div><div>only sooner than i thought it would...</div><div>but still i couldn't help wishing and hoping for the outcome that i want...</div><div>silly me~~~ </div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-239158226103467010?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-19849874109022858202010-12-26T21:59:00.002+08:002010-12-26T22:31:44.202+08:00finally gt time to blog le... ^^<div>have been busy with project for the whole of this week...</div><div>meeting grp daily on mondae to thurs straight... </div><div>but enjoyed my Christmas alot!!! Christmas eve oso!!</div><div>woo~~~</div><div>=)</div><div><br /></div><div>24/12, thurs, Christmas Eve :)</div><div>went out with Daniel Boon, Kai Lun, Kelvin, Daniel Lam, Jing Ting and Justin...</div><div>went to eat at Sakae at Scape...</div><div>eat until damn full lo...</div><div>wahahaha...</div><div>had super lotsa fun!! =)</div><div>den went to watch movie with Boon , Lam, Kai Lun, and Kelvin...</div><div>too bad the two JTs cant make it coz Jing Ting have to go back m'sia...</div><div>so Justin have to acc her...</div><div>watched Tron... in 3D...</div><div>very naise siol!!!!</div><div>after that went back home...</div><div><br /></div><div>25/12, Friday, Christmas!!!! :)</div><div>MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!! ^^</div><div>went out with Liu Yue, Kai Lun, Justin, Kelvin and Zi Wei...</div><div>too bad that Boon cant come~~ LOL... =p </div><div>went to play pool at checkpoint...</div><div>1st time playing pool...</div><div>so fun...</div><div>hehes...</div><div>reali have to thanks all the guys for teaching me how to play...</div><div>=)</div><div>after that went to astons to eat....</div><div>but kelvin and zw have to leave...</div><div>so left 4 of us...</div><div>den called daphne to join us..</div><div>hehes...</div><div>went to cine after dinner then rented a movie to watch...</div><div>so fun lo...</div><div>and daphne's reaction to all the gross scene of the movie was damn funni!!!!</div><div>hehes... </div><div>after that trained home...</div><div>=p</div><div>reached home at 12...</div><div>wahahhaa... =p</div><div>love it lots...</div><div>LOL... =p</div><div><br /></div><div>26/12, saturday</div><div>neva go out todae...</div><div>spent damn lot over the past two days ald... </div><div>now damn damn broke... </div><div>slacked at home the whole dae watching hk drama with mama...</div><div>hehes..</div><div>don feel like doing any work sia...</div><div>but have to do some preparation for tmr project meeting... =(</div><div>so shall blog till here ba...</div><div>reali need to go and do project ald la...</div><div>=p</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-1984987410902285820?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-31524695314916422922010-12-14T20:26:00.003+08:002010-12-14T21:00:29.141+08:00is this the right thing that i should be doing now? <div>is it the right decision that i am making? </div><div>is this right for me to be doing this? </div><div>OMG~~ damn confused now la!!! ='(</div><div>all of this is too sudden ald...</div><div>and the thing is that u are not ard... </div><div>when this somehow concerns u...</div><div>dono if it is a good thing or a bad thing for u to not be ard currently...</div><div>ur absent is not helping me in making the decision...</div><div>haiz... </div><div>what should i do? =( </div><div><br /></div><div>i don want to hurt u.... </div><div>but sometimes... some things are out of my control... </div><div>i cant keep on waiting forever....</div><div>it's not like i don wanna wait for u...</div><div>but the thing is i don even know what ur feelings towards me exactly is... =( </div><div>haiz.... ='(</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-3152469531491642292?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3191075360761974030.post-22748002540108825962010-12-13T14:07:00.005+08:002010-12-14T19:37:01.962+08:00ITB CT finally over ald le!!! <div>hehes... =p</div><div>one down~~~ </div><div>left with one more macroeconomics to go on fri...</div><div>todae not gonna study..</div><div>hehes... =p </div><div>shall start studying oni tmr....</div><div>todae will be 'off' dae for me!!</div><div>hehes...</div><div><br /></div><div>now currently at RP.... </div><div>crapping all the way and wasting time with friends... </div><div><span class="Apple-style-span">DANIEL BOON, KAI LUN, ZW, KELVIN, DANIEL LAM, SI JIE, CHRISTINE, JING TING, JUSTIN, and SAN CHANG</span>.... </div><div>(as requested by daniel boon... im supposed to write down all their names~~</div><div>wahahaha... )</div><div><br /></div><div>hehes... so long neva spent time lidat with friends ald... </div><div>hehes... =p </div><div>like it like it!!! =)</div><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/3191075360761974030-2274800254010882596?l=mylifesuxnihateit.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>serenehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15956012332680801465noreply@blogger.com0